HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATASHA!

I hate this journal. I hate my life. Both are things in which, I want to change but can't. No matter how many journal entries I dispose of and no matter how many changes or decisions I make in life, it will never undo my past, and it will never undo my pain...

I try to think optimistically about my life and future...but, life in general just seems ( Read more... )

"[Maybe it is something to do with being a confused teenager but my life, this life I'm living right now, feels like the beginning of everything and the end of everything...]"

With so much going on right now...and so many thoughts running through my head I'm finding it hard to think. Have you ever known exactly what you want to say to someone…you ( Read more... )

What can I really say about my life today? It's not much different than it was before. Not much better either. I'm not sure if it is my fault that things continue to remain the same...or if it is indeed how I claim it to be. Is it really other's actions…that make me unhappy? I admit that I am scared of change...but I am even more scared of things ( Read more... )

The last couple days have been interesting. I wouldn’t exactly call the days passed, eventful…but, stressful, definitely.  Sometimes figuring out one’s feelings is harder than actually solving the problem at hand. As soon as these feelings are made evident, it is hard to ignore and even harder to dismiss.  My feelings; mainly consisting of ( Read more... )

Today is a new day, granted with new days comes new events and the same routine.  Yesterday was nothing exciting, although, without knowing it I did see an old friend. Have you ever been so sure that you know someone but, at that moment are not sure from where or how you met? This happens to me a lot, except this time it was a little unexpected.  ( Read more... )

It's weird how a day can start out perfectly normal, and with one misunderstanding or one misguided look your day can go from good to horrible, in a glance. This was made evident to me; I watched from the sidelines and felt as if it were happening to me. I watched someone I care about get mistreated, and her mistreat another but, with reason. Does ( Read more... )

Why is it that everything is everyone’s business, and why is it that as soon as one is involved in a relationship things change so drastically? I’m not looking for these relationships to change back, but I am however looking for an answer. I am curious as to find out what persuades a person change, and why things are never the way they once were. ( Read more... )

Welcome to my life. I'm not an extraordinary person, and I have not made any extraordinary accomplishments, but I am still here. I am unable to cure cancer, and have not experienced anything of the sort but am a good listener and a loyal and trusting friend.  I can't become a world leader, or own my own country, but I hope to be someone to look up ( Read more... )

I’m sitting in this crowded room, screaming and no one can hear me. My heart is beating so fast and so loud that no one can recognize the sound. I feel nothing and everything all at the same time. This is how he makes me feel, this is how I make myself feel. Nothing can ever be easier or come by chance, everything has to be so complicated and come ( Read more... )