goodbye former life.

hello sweet freedom.

i am now sallypunchclock.

i had a beautiful dream. it feels amazing to have my psyche break through the pain.

Be kind to me or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it
I'm an extraordinary machine

nick asked for a divorce on the fourteenth of december.
since september he has been pushing me away and treating me terribly.
you can't make someone love you.

i will be moving back to the 633.
i get to be myself again. soon.

nostalgia is like...fuck. something hella dumb. it so screws with your head, demeans everything you've accomplished or tried to accomplish in the intervening period, and sez: the past is better than anything you'll ever get from the future. you're a failure. even though back then you were just as miserable but in a different way so with the years ( Read more... )

so i went for a walk with molly and she went insane and everything outside is crazy and foreign and out to kill me. i bought a pack of smokes, even though i'm in the process of quitting. and i stood at the top of a hill in the park and wanted to silence the whole lousy world ( Read more... )

DEFINITION: (adjective) able to be changed, shaped, or formed by outside pressures.

EXAMPLE: Gold is a very useful metal because it is so malleable. A child's personality is malleable and deeply influenced by the things her parents say and do.

SYNONYMS: impressionable, pliable, transformable

its hard to stop using the only thing you self-medicate with.
i have a headache and i miss stuff.
been listening to a lot of chopin lately.

me and the shady lady are hitting the town for tampura tofu (possibly) and cheap beer (definately).

Try to keep petty dramas and other unwanted intrusions out of the way as much as possible. Now's a good time to pay attention to your inner workings for a while. If you're feeling frustrated about something, do whatever is necessary to cleanse yourself of that negative energy. Tonight, make sure you give something (or someone) your best shot -- the ( Read more... )