I have to make more girl friends.

[notlikelly]

I know this will be instigating more girl bashing from a choice few, but I've got to say what I've got to say. I'm realizing that there are not many differences between me and other females. I used to think that I was not one of the stupid ones. But duh. How did I miss that. I will always hurt people, and even though I'll do it subconsciously

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[mrisaka]

If you go through my LJ you'll find some entry from a while back. I don't remember what it was about, but the gist was, "I come around and I fuck things up for everyone."

So I'm sorry I suck. I really do. I am not mad at you in the slightest. I think that I understand your position pretty clearly, and it's perfectly reasonable.

Then there's that Assemblage 23 lyric, "I'm only seething, don't misconstrue."

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[notlikelly]

Alright, so, you don't suck. In fact, you are a superb friend. You have not messed anything up for me. Unless we have to stop hanging out, in which case, would make me lose a friend. Big frown.

But really. Whatever YOU need ME to do or NOT do so that we can keep being friends, I am all for. LET ME KNOW! OK! BEDTIME!

[tommyoftheks]

hey sis, I'm not mad at you either... I agree with what you said. Honestly, I can't even say that you don't know what you're doing... Because I do not know what happened with you and Dan. The only thing I can't understand, maybe because I'm not supposed to, is why you feel that there is no way anyone could meet your desires the way he apparently did. I mean, I wasn't even with the girl that I thought there was no one better than in the world, she isn't interested in me like that. And honestly, there were times when I was like, how could I ever date anyone else... but I've dated other girls, and I've liked it. I just feel like I haven't really found the right one, even if I think I have in this particular girl... If she doesn't like me, If it can't work for her, then she must not be the one. I don't know if that helps... But honestly, don't think I hate you. It makes me feel bad to be all 'straight forward' sometimes, but I think that because we are friends, it's ok for me to voice my opinion, even if it may be in somewhat of a fit of

[tommyoftheks]

PS- this is what I agreed with:

"So I advise all men to be clear and open about their expectations, all women to be realistic and honest. I'll be taking this advice as well."

and I will do my damnedest to do the same.

[notlikelly]

I appreciate your honesty and advice. I think I'm just wrapped in a cloud of confusion right now though, so I do have some things to figure out. And I need to better myself in that way. I think things change with time, and who knows...maybe I'll feel that way again someday. But for real, I need some time to heal.

Thank you for your help. I do think this is silly over LJ, but I'm mostly glad that we're getting all of this out there, somehow.

[tommyoftheks]

yeah.... I thought about that, and no one ever just jumps out of something like that and is like, oh well, water under the bridge.... I mean, I do, and that's probably why I'm like wahhhhh, but I'm weird... I've never been angry at any of my girlfriends or friends, and several of them have done things that most people would have never forgiven and blah blah blah... I don't even think it's a matter of me forgiving them, I'm just like, eh whatever, you screwed up... people are human, I'm not gonna flip out... I'll just move on... I don't really know if that remotely applies here... the fact is, I have to be up in 4 hours to go swimming. Alright, talk to you later. Your one of my favorite girls kelly, seriously. You try so hard, and i think you succeed so much that when you might slip up somewhere, it seems so major, when in reality most people live by slipping up. If you don't change yourself, you'll continue to be one of the best people I know. If you do change, you'll probably still be that good. Unless you start killing my family