i have finely been able to admit to myself that i have commitment issues. i always denied it before but it is so present and obvious i can't hide it from myself any more. it is really quite sad. what the hell is wrong with me? lol i'm just not sure. ahh, grr.

katie said she wanted something to read but i don't have anything much to say. i don't mind school so much yet. i already have a favorite class and a least favorite. my favorite is chemistry and then my least favorite is drivers ed. when i look at that written down it seems slightly reversed. aren't i supposed to like drivers ed because it is my ( Read more... )

1st hour- journalism, kuchefski ( Read more... )

okay so i got back from vacation the day before yesterday and i had a great time. i went to maryland and pennsylvania. we went to gettysburg and it was really great to be there where history occurred. anyways, yesterday i dyed my hair. its now my natural color, maybe slightly darker. today i have to register since i missed registration while on ( Read more... )

okay last night was SUPER DUPER AMAZING. last night was the three doors down, staind, breaking benjamin, no address concert. breaking benjamin canceled though which sucked. i wish no address canceled, they were fucking terrible. oh well. i was trying to compare green day to last night's concert but i can't because they were two completely different ( Read more... )

did i tell him? no. was i going to? yes. i feel awful. do i regret it like i said i would? yes. i don't really want to hear anything of the "you should have told him", "why didn't you?" sort because i know i screwed up. i know i will get over it but i'm in quite a little dark place right now. i liked him so much and then i tried not to like him as ( Read more... )

okay. last night the show went well, i hear. i don't know for sure. i didn't see one minute of the play, i never left the dressing room. it was nice not to do anything though and talk to people ;), so i'm not complaining. after the show the whole cast (majority) went to andrew's party. it was very fun indeed. katie you would not have appreciated ( Read more... )

so tonight instead of steak n' shake i was at gwen's house for a cast party. it was fun except my pants kept falling down and kinethia wouldn't stop pointing out my underwear. ;) why do guys find whores attractive? i asked my dad and he said that at this age it is chemical, raging hormones and all of that and how whores demand the attention that ( Read more... )

;) i'll tell you in person!

i whistle a happy tune and very single time the happiness in the tune convinces me that i'm not afraid ( Read more... )