BALURGRHGR!

ive done my hair and mums brushed it all out for me. i have a toothache and am crossing fingers no allergy to the dye.

I've never fallen out of lve whilst in a relationship. I don't know how it feels nor could I begin to understand it. I read yesterday that love was a decision not a feeling. Either way I'm blaming myself and taking it personally. Is it because I'm ugly? Did ii do too much for him and became predictable? Did what I considered comfort and intimacy ( Read more... )

You know what's funny there was a couple of moments in scotland where he.. Not irritated as such but made me clench my jaw and moan a bity. Like how long it takes him to tell a storybwhen my motorrmout interupts and says it quicke, or that we tried to have a romantic bath together and he farted. And now I realise that was onne of the things I love ( Read more... )

fucking hell even i am reminding myself of him. i pulled a facial expression he does, a\nd i also did a gesture he did when he wants somethin and cant be bothered to get off his lazy arse

just getting out of bed feels like self harming. i cant touch my phone. i cried when i changed my password from nick to something else. i cant look down texts or photos..i cant even se the app for a notepad cos theres his xmas list and out flat list and shopping lists and scotland lists. have barely eaten in three days,cant oisten to music. last ( Read more... )

just when i start to think i may be starting to feel better i go rolling back to square one.

I'd take jan 2010 over this a thousand times and be grateful.

mere hours away from january first, bothered?

today i finaally achieved a lifelong goal: to see two films in one day at the cinema. pathetic i know but i loved it. we saw the 11.30am viewing of drive, basked in the sunshine eating mexican and drinking cocktails and then saw planet of the apes.it was awesome!