it really sucks when you just can;t even hump someone for fun. I am so frustrated. But i guess this is getting older.This is what i asked for in a weird way.

I can think of a million bad things to say right now. But that is easy. The challenge is to acknowledge the unseen beauty in my day to day ( Read more... )

I really know i am not like everyone else... thanks for the reminder ( Read more... )

I truly just don't give a fuck.
What is right and wrong anyway?
Perspective is bias by definition.

this is the rush of experiencing someone else's breakdown.
So.. break down.
Give up. Destroy yourself today.

YOU ARE A VERY BAD ROBOT.

I am personally amazed by men of this generation or time. They all want to fuck. thats all they want and they are willing to say and do anything to achieve this, and the seccond its attained... they suddenly fear commitment and run away... and make me feel like a whore. Ofcourse they want to be friends after. Just friends. The flawed logic is that ( Read more... )

i swear to god, i am clearly the most fucked up person ever created. and this is why i do bad things. Like a robot. I am just trying to burn out fast. Why do I even bother sometimes I wonder... because i am just too stupid to learn. I am a very bad person. How could anyone love such a machine. I;d sell my soul to become the first robot who loved.

Let's see, i had sex wtih a frat boy, a french soccer player, and a cute law student from rice. WOW. Sean Cody would be proud. Meanwhile, Patrick, my professor soul mate... called... and we are going out together for New Years. I am so confused, i would marry Patrick... but i feel so jeckyl and Hyde... I could settle down with Patrick, but I;d miss ( Read more... )

I know the answere now...

thank you John Cale...

Maybe there's a God above, all I ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who out drew you
And it's not a cry you can hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah

these days who knows what love is anymore. Everyone just turns out to be a total nut job, coward or total dead weight loser. Maybe I dunno what love is, it certainly isn't a blessing thats for sure. Some people just change too one day, the me or them you used to know turns out to be a new stranger all over again. Someone to break you ( Read more... )

My life is so crazy. Chuck says if you want to see God laugh, make a plan. Well I was never much for religion or anything. But God sure does find a way to poke fun of me as much as possible. Pairing the most unlikely of people together... forcing us all in uncomfortable situations... giving you everything you thought u needed accept the few things ( Read more... )