what do you do, when your goals do not coincide with the goals of the person you love? not just goals but like, the rest of your life?

its been a long time since ive been on here. im going to go ahead and say it...im lonely in this new city. i have luke, but...its different. i dont have anyone to get coffee with at 2am. i wake up, go to work, come home, sleep, repeat. on my days off i go the beach and the grocery store. i do have emily, but we're not that close yet...working on it ( Read more... )

i love him more than anything. its totally crazy. i thought ive been in love before but, no. the first time... i loved him but i was always on edge. fucking petrified waiting to finding who the current girl he was cheating on me with was. waiting to fucking fall apart again ( Read more... )

my rob. yesterday (6/21) was 4 years. i spent the entire day not trying to cry and just trying to think of his adorable face. i miss him so much it physically hurts everyday. it hurts so bad at all times, that the anniversary isnt that much different. its actually more like on the 20th i think "4 years ago today, my robbie was still here". he will ( Read more... )

im so scared! we found an apartment, thank god. im scared hes gonna decide he doesnt actually love me, in like 4 seconds. he wont, right? he wouldnt be moving up here and changing his whole life for me, right? no he wouldnt. hes too good for me, i fear.i better hit the gym tomorrow.

im falling for this boy. a lot. its insane. i feel like a character in a movie because this quick falling is happening so quickly and intensely. and a boy actually feels the exact same way about me. hes great. talks about his exes a little too much, buttttttt i think i can fix that. <3new boy<3. we have the same views on most things. like religion ( Read more... )

i really set myself up for that one. i was just asking for it. god i cant believe i fell for that. well actually, its me, so i can believe i fell for it. i suck. this sucks.

so what am i gonna do now? theres nothing. nothing. help!

work has gotten tons better. tons!

school has me freaked out. more specifically, Senior Seminar has me freaked out. my panic disorders are flaring back up. damn!

THURSDAY!!!! FINISH SENIOR SEM PAPER!!!! OR DIE!!!

i need to return to ireland. i was so happy there. i would love to go with pat. to see his eyes light up.

i got a new car. toyota carolla s class 07
i got my septum peirced today
work is. i cant talk about it
end of school cant come quickly enough.
though everything is not ok

yup. sitting here. waiting. again. this is awful. amy is right. about everything.