So I auditioned for CNTM and i made it into the top 60 out of 150. Friday i went for round 2 and made it to the top 30! So i am going to be in the runway show and i got a free photoshoot. I think i am in love with the photographer. www.Jeffreyhackett.com he is amazing, i love his work! I was told he was interested in shooting me in his studio and ( Read more... )

Wow, its been years since Ive written in this thing. I llost my journal back home somwhere so i needed someplace else to write. I guess alot has changed. Since simsbury i have moved to DC and i am not residing in Montreal. Sucha amazing city with suchan amazing culture. I dont have many friends yet and ive been here since July. I have no idea why ( Read more... )

Application deadlines are coming up very soon. It seem sas though our whole school carer was a hoax. FIlling out the questions and filling in the blanks. Its as if our capabilities are determined by a test score and an essay. What about pre-high school. Do these things even matter? Than why do we focus so much in elementry school when it's high ( Read more... )

Thought one: I wish there was a button that you could push a button and erase past relationships. That way nothing would interfere with your present. Seems kind of negative but sometimes its much needed. When years later all you can think about is that person to the point where you dont even try to have other relationships...than thats sad. Very ( Read more... )

I told myself this summer was all about reinvention. Reinventing the way i look at the world, my style, my attitude. I don't think any of that happened. I look at the world a little different and i realized how different my views are than alot of people. My style hasn't changed very much if at all. I wasn't that much to myself as i usually am. I ( Read more... )

This one perpetuated from the classic styling that most people think of when they here the word, Poem. Its simple yet has a very complex meaning.

I Am Grey

What's in a color

made bright and cheerful

like the yellow rays of the sun

or golden like a sunflower

What's in a color

made radiant and sultry

crisp like an red apple

sexy like the warmth of a ( Read more... )

A Sinless lie

The angry bellow of thunder

casting over the footsteps of my demise

lightning the only way to see my fate

fast asleep a suburban family dwells

without a clue in the world

of a son left forgotten

no one realizing one door left ajar

could be spotted by a distant enemy

the rustle of the floorboards

my only clue, my only reason to hide

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a piece by devan

and again in this abandoned relapse of a dream it came, it haunted, and i knew that nothing would ever be real again. like a mother battling for the freedom of her unborn child, i was awoken covered in a sweet tasting sweat wishing for the immortality of my slumber. all these lines are smudged and ruined and no painting of mine ( Read more... )

The past couple weeks ive been doing alot of thinking. Thinking about me, life, other people. Just things in general. WHy don't i just let things come to me? WHy do i have to be the one who goes out looking for it to hit you? Been chasing after so many things for so long and when it comes down to it, jsut sit down and relax. If its meant to happen ( Read more... )

Deranged thoughts of you
against a summer sand
in the distant, clouds form
a tattoo that bleeds across my wrist
the whisper of the wind
howling your name in frustration
a tower crashes to the ground
replicating our relationship
the last season goes by
and my tears turn to dust
only to return the ocean
where we once swam