tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didnt want to fade, but they did and so did i that day.

I'm starting to realize why I've become so shy. its because of that fact that in the past when I have put myself out there, it has led to rejection and pain. when you are outgoing and do put yourself out there, you become suseptable to things like rejection. I didn't want to be the girl who got hurt over and over again, but I've realized I have ( Read more... )

I miss feeling wnanted

DECMEBER.


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I hope my instincts are wrong

I'm freaking out like I haven't for three years. Its everything. I have absolutely no social life, even on weekends I usually sit inside and watch tv or sleep. I sleep all the time. I sleep half the damn weekend, and I go to bed mad early during the week. I get drunk too much and that's all I do on weekends and its not as much fun as it used to be ( Read more... )

Well its pretty much a week before my 16th birthday. Strange. The last 4 years habe gone by incredibly fast. I never have time for my friends, let alone myself anymore. Its schoolschoolschool these days. Sucks so bad ( Read more... )

I feel so disconnected from everyone
and I don't want it to be like this anymore.

I want to be close with all my friends again.

i want him to come home so bad. i had a dream about him last night. he came home and we all went out to dinner, and we kept looking at eachother like always, and then when everyone was dne eating we got up and left first and we sat at the bottom of a hill on a bench and talked for what seemed like forever. and he just held me and everything was ( Read more... )

looking back through periods of time,
the best were when she wasnt around.

:-)