i dont have the time or energy for this anymore.
in case any of you have been wondering (or havent really noticed or cared) why i havent updated.
i dont really plan to after this.
after 5 years, i'm finally calling it quits.

so long, lj.

revamp that.
i really need to get the fuck out of this place.

i really want to get the hell out of this place.

the sunrises these past few mornings have been simply amazing.

except, as peaceful and beautiful as they are,
i am still bothered by a sense of loneliness.

so this girl named Alexia friended me on myspace awhile ago because she thought it was cool we shared the same name. also, she used to live in gainesville and moved to new york city alittle while after i moved here (it's like we swapped). and it's crazy the similarities we share--we know a lot of the same kids, we're both lesbian, we both have ( Read more... )

so after finishing off my last carton (that's 2 cartons in 9 days. sick), actually getting a bit of food in me, and finally getting more than an hour of sleep last night--i've finally settled the fuck down ( Read more... )

my stomach keeps constantly releasing this horrible moaning sound ( Read more... )

( i'll spare you )

i'm breaking.

i cant sleep.
i cant eat.
and even if i try to eat alittle,
i cant even hold it down.

i cant stop these tears.
i cant stop shaking.

this pain is so fucking unbearable.

i'm completely numb ( Read more... )