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[angel_1753]

I carry Wes in the front doors of the hotel and lay him on the couch. He's breathing, just unconscious... I tried to be careful and not drink to much... but I couldn't let the poison just stay in his blood stream. And if that was all there was to it, I wouldn't feel the crushing guilt. But no, I enjoyed it.. the blood, even in spite of the bitter

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[somebritishguy]

The very first sensation I become aware of is coldness. I feel cold. Following that, I can rule out the possibility of this being a painless process. I can tell by the aching pain swimming through my body. I manage to drag myself to the surface of my consciousness and open my eyes

[angel_1753]

I can't believe he can still even think about thanking me... after everything. I turn to look at him. His eyes are sparkling but his skin is still pale... I need to tell him I'm sorry... that I didn't know... that he's my best friend and I would never want him to think I'm taking advantage. I look at him and gather my thoughts. My eyes drift to the two small puncture wounds on his neck surrounded by reddish purple bruising. "I--" I just shake my head and look away. I wipe my face with my hands then turn to face him. I start again, looking in his eyes sincerely, "Wes--" but I don't get anything out this time either... I turn around when I hear the doors open. "Cordy! Hey!" My eyes light up when I see her and I can't stop the smile from breaking across my face.

[cordiechase]

I saw Angel as soon as I walked in.

He smiled, brightly at me, but I sensed something wrong, behind that smile.

I frowned a little, then smiled back at him.

"Hey, I said walking up to him. I kissed him softly on the lips.

[yammerer_willow]

I walked in to the hotel behind Cordy and noticed Angel and then Weslye. What is wrong? Why was he laying here?

"What is going on?"

I knew I shouldn't have left...I should have been here...to help...of course that could be the fear talking again.

[yammerer_willow]

I sighed.

"Wesley, please just tell me the whole story."

I said a bit frustrated.

"It didn't give you a tail or horns, so I don't see the bad...unless you pinned Angel down and did naughty things to him."

I said with a smile. When Wesley looked away from me my heart jumped. Ok number one I was kidding, I didn't think that had happened, but now...oh goddess.

[somebritishguy]

I had only hoped to avoid hurting her in any way. But that is a foolish notion. That one can love someone and never cause them any pain.

I think my pale face is probably even paler after what she said. I stared at the wall rather than at Willow.

"I... Well... It...." I struggled with the right words. But there are none. "I was confused and... I kissed Angel." I blurted out. I suppose it wasn't much of a blurt since I'd stammered so much first.

[yammerer_willow]

I stood up and backed away.

"You..You what?"

I asked. I think shocked was an understatement.

"Ex--explain how you can mistakingly kiss Angel?"

I ask my eyes wide as I try to hold back the tears and the fear that he didn't actually love me.

[somebritishguy]

I finally turned my head to look at her. I can't stand the look on her face, in her eyes. The pain. The one thing I wanted so desperately to avoid

[cordiechase]

Cordy walked and sat down with Angel on the poof.

"Angel, talk to me. What happened?" I say caressing his cheek.

I looked over to where Wes and Willow, and things didn't seem right.

"Come out with it, buster."

[angel_1753]

God, she's going to be mad, or worse... hurt. I can't believe I let this happen! I'm no better than the demon inside me! No point in dancing around it... Cordy deserves the truth. "Cordy... down in the sewers... Wes and I got into some... trouble. Poison trouble. And it made us... um... kiss... each other." I tried to keep my eyes fixed on her clear brown-hazel eyes, but as they started to cloud with too much emotion, I had to look down. I looked at our hands, still clasped together, and stroked hers gently with my thumb. She'll probably leave me now that she knows... "Cordy..." I looked up into her eyes again, "I love you so much... I know I can never deserve you... but I love you... completely."

[cordiechase]

My eyes, widened.

"You what?", I yelled. I looked at him with anger. There was confusion going on in my head. I didn't understand. Did he just tell me he kissed Wes? You've got to be kidding me.

"Demon poison? Why the heck would it make you kiss each other?"

I didn't miss the fact that he said he loved me, and that he was giving me his best puppy dog eyes. But, I was so distracted by the fact that he told me he kissed Wes, that I completely pushed it aside.

"Did you like it?" I glared at him.

[angel_1753]

I knew she would be mad, but that didn't make her yelling cut any less. I couldn't blame her, though. It's all my fault, and I deserve every last shred of guilt... but she doesn't deserve to feel this way. Knowing I did this to her... that is what hurts.

But her question shocked me enough to pull myself together. "Like it? What!? I--" I look up into her eyes. I figured I was damned if I do damned if I don't. I couldn't tell her 'no' because it wasn't like it was horrible, but I can't tell her 'yes' because she'll think I want to do it again. How do I explain that it was just like... "It was like kissing my friend," I finished honestly.

I stood up and walked over to her. "I know you're mad, and you should be, but I promise... It'll never happen again." I realized how arrogant that sounded. "I mean if... if you still will let me be your boyfriend?"