i'm so stressed about everything. i find myself always asking questions. like, why do i hurt people? why don't i care until it's done and over with? and why can't i help it? i can't. i do things without taking the time to think. like-- how will this effect me and others? it's like i'm growing up all oer again and can't decide wrong from right. i ( Read more... )

i need someone to talk to.
anyone?

i can't help the fact that i'm jealous right now.
especially when i'm in such a fragile state of trying to live a sober life without anything mind altering.
i'm trying to build my self confindence from scratch, something i used to replace with getting high.

and it's not easy when i cant help the fact of comparing myself to other girls he talks to when ( Read more... )

 i need a best friend who isn't  a
thousand miles away, no offense rae.

anyway, we got our first place. in a cuuute little
duplex with the most adorable 70's  kitchen i
could ask for! right here in town. i want to have
a house warming get together, but we currently 
have shit for furniture, ahha.

nevertheless,
i'm super excited.

i bake pies for ten dollars an hour.

my first pack of smokes; camels.

hey amber!
i found a place to throw our birthday party.

I GOT A JOB AT COLDSTONE!@!$%!^&

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Hold Tight!