im over this. i quit lj, it is encouraging me to be sick. good luck ladies.

My binging and purging is sick. absoutly disguisting lately. i know its because im alone all day with kids and they constantly have me cooking, or grocery shopping or working with food ( Read more... )

i actually think i am loosing it. i dont even make sence anymore. i cant remember anything or hold a normal conversation. bahhh ( Read more... )

So Ive been having such a hard time sleeping lately. Probably because of all the caffine I put into my body but anyways I barley ever dream anymore because Im not into a deep sleep. BUTTT lately Ive been having the most thinspirational dreams. Like people forcing food at me and telling me to eat. hah. okay that sounds weird but its sweet ( Read more... )

Today has been sweet. Im so inspired by the fact that im going home. Oh my gosh. I cannont wait. Its like that feeling you get when one person asks if you've lost weight.. except this time its my fam and friends and anyone ive ever known. wahoooo. i am looking forward to it like no other. I wonder of I can get down to 101 by then. If I dont fuck ( Read more... )

fuck yes
so i decided to go home early. in 3 and a half months. thats all the fucking inspiration i need not to eat. my god i cant wait to step off that airplane. imagaine 101. gosh im excited right now.

This weekend I was doing so well. I fasted up until about 5 on saturday then gave into a salad ( Read more... )

This should be easier than it is. Get some fn self-control. Im not around anyone ALL day long, I dont even have anyone close enough to notice if Ive lost weight here. fuck. and yet i give in to all that sick food and find myself heaving over the toilet. sick ( Read more... )

So even though my scale still is telling me i am fat, i have totally lost some weight. im stoked. theres like no cellulite left. maybe its because i went off the pill but whatever im still stoked

i have been such a mess. my gosh ive completely gotten off track. i binged like no other last night. it was freaking sick. i just ate like everything i saw and totally lost control. i purged (the first time in months) but i still feel like shit cuz i know i didnt get everything up. sick ( Read more... )