Hummm.Things suck so bad. I find that things can never just come to me without some stupid complecations. Nothing in my life comes without atleast a ton of pain all I trully want to do is scream half of the time. Honestly I don't think I can deal with people anymore. I hate the fact that I try so hard to make things work then something has to ( Read more... )

Hello again I know It has been such a long time since I have used this thing but better late then never.I think that it is extremely funny how things work out in life . Yes I have experienced my share of really bad things happening to me like seeing my home burn down right in front of me. But I have defineitely have had more than my share of good ( Read more... )

Okay I haven't done this in such a long time so it kind of feels weird but what ever 2004 was a tough year for me. Things happen that i kind of wish didn't happen like joe leaving, and me and several guys whom i do not care to mention but things are okay and they will turn our fine for 2005 i know this doesen't make any sense but i just wanted to ( Read more... )

Thank god school has started and i know that i am going to eat those words later on but for now school gives me something else to focus on instead of my problems and how my world seems to be crumbeling around me even tho i know that it isn't this feeling is only tempoary and i will get over it.

I went away on a much needed vacation to Chicago it was so much fun.It was just really nice for once to know that for once I was not obligated to do or take care of anyone. My brothere and I just hung out every night there was someplace new to go. I loved just being someplace new it was fun and the Navy Pier was amazing and my brothers friend ( Read more... )

Today was a great day i saw my little brother graduate from highschool i was so proud. And they song josh groban's "you raise me up" which made me extremly happy( sorry polline about the hand holding) but it was nice to hear that song again. and the people in front of us were freakin losers  that is why that man was going bold. ugggh what a ( Read more... )

today actually yesterday was a really nice day  went out with a friend and spent sometime together always good. Saw Raising Helen Which is a cute movie. It was nice just being with him tho. We went to the Gris Mill which is one of the prettiest places in marlborough i think. then to concord park.. after that We met up with one of my friends i ( Read more... )

oh gosh today was something else i am going to learn how to hot wire a car  so that i will never be caught in a paking lot trying to call every guy in my phone trying to remeber who knows stuff about cars and who can tell me how to hot wire one. I don't feel like being nice to anyone so i am going to stay home so that i can still friends later ( Read more... )

hmmm lets see okay nothing much has happened latly at least nothing to interesting. Oh other than then the fact that i am no longer going to try so hard when it comes to life situations. me tryyinig to analyze everything is going to make me sick so i am just gonna sit back relax and see how things go. Life is already hard enough for me I already ( Read more... )

okay so humm i am so lost. I can't understand anything I don't understand the way I feel and why I feel the way I feel. And I must admit I don't like it one bit. There is this guy that I like as a friend alot only because he  is really cool and smart. I never really thought of him as anything more than a friend until umm i don't know a couple ( Read more... )