Not too too busy at work today. Thank god. We've been swamped all week. I haven't been able to get half the shit done that i'm supposed to do. I'm finally sending out these stupid routers today because i haven't had 5 seconds to breathe or scratch my ass in the past week and a half - two weeks ( Read more... )

...now i hate everything again. I am so fucking sick of......ahhh what's the fucking use? I'm a broken record. I can't help it though. Every second that i am here depresses me more and more. Pretty much any job I get is going to suck like this. It will start out great, then I will end up fucking hating it. I'm tired of this shit. I'm supposed to ( Read more... )

I have a LOT of work to do if I want to get jobs playing music for a living. On saturday I went up to Eric's to record my demo to shop around to people. I found out that playing along with a click track is extremely difficult. At first I started floating through genre's and styles. Atrocious. Then I decided to make up the most retardedly easy rock ( Read more... )

[20:23] EyeEetBabiez: good evening eric ( Read more... )

Fuck this place. I'm at that point now where the apathy is setting in. I'm afraid i'm gonna get fired and I don't even care. I can't believe I used to look forward to coming in. My new found bad attitude has definitely affected the job performance. I'm out of shape, unhealthy, unmotivated. I'm starting to look in the mirror and see my dad. This is ( Read more... )

I think i'm getting sick. Gonna try to quit smoking again. Julie got a tattoo. I'm jealous now and I want one. It's the cartoon drawing of herself that she did. It looks really cool. I want to get the chaosphere logo on my left shoulder blade but it's gonna be quite expensive. I also want to get a bulb of garlic on my right shoulder blade. That one ( Read more... )

for the time being anyway.

So yesterday i went and got my HIV test. won't find out the results until late next week probably. i'm opitimistic but....y'never know ( Read more... )

A nice weekend was had. Friday, I went x-mas shopping for myself. I bought a 20 gig Creative MP3 player. Got a good deal on it. Also bought a new router which works way better than my shitty belkin router. Also got a cordless phone for the house and a Sims expansion pack for Julie ( Read more... )

I'm in one of those moods this morning. Day 5 of not smoking. I want to strangle everyone. Doing my best not to. Overloaded at work. Bullshit from last week creeping back at me. Missed the right train this morning, missed the I-Bus, had to go to Rye, then take a cab up to White Plains. $20 down the fucking tubes. I bought more thermals from Target ( Read more... )