did you know there is lesbian sex on TV now? there was last night on oxygen. i was playing the TV to try to drown out the sound of the ringing in my ears.
i want to tell him to go but i'm terrified of losing him of a month's worth of laying on my bed missing him, aching for his touch and wondering if i'll ever feel it again i want to be brave but i'm scared to be crushed under the weight of one more day of being alone
i've lost my love too many times to let it happen again
when there's nothing left to be said, how will we know? or will we just go on saying all the same things over again never realizing that they stopped meaning anything so long ago or will we never get to that point? how will we know?
my mom keeps talking to me i don't have the energy to respond, nor the heart to tell her to go away she's playing her gospel music oh the misery i'd forgotten what it's like to be me is this it? i wish i had a life to belong to