After a while, even the people closest to you get tired of dealing with you.

I have fallen back. I am alone.

"Seven years you assured me
that I'd be fine if I complied
only push the way off to fight you
(only push the way off to fight you)
Now I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
Getting off my chest
the story ends

I would find a way without...
Tell him his eyes see too clear
I would find a way without you
Tell him his eyes see too clear
That mistake was ( Read more... )

"How irreparably changed my life has become. It's always the last days of summer and I've been left out in the cold with no door to get back in."

sleepless and alone

I thought I had hit rock bottom, but I am falling deeper

I have recently added a new depth of fucked-up-ness to my whole situation... and its not even my fault. Its something thats supposed to be helping.

Since I haven't slept in 20 hours, Ill have to elaborate more later.

I am chemicals
And I am cells
I am a binary mixture of electricity and the elemental
I am serotonin and I am dopamine
I am drugs and I am remedies
I am forever afflicted.
But this is who I am
This is what defines me
This is what I struggle through
This is what I cry for
This is what I would die for
But I hope that all I can be
Will give someone

I am a realist. I have always been told I am a pessimist, or not an optimist.... but what I am is a realist. There are realities in life which can not be change. Some are good and some are bad. Some are happy and some are sad ( Read more... )

A big part I missed from my last entry... and probably the biggest concern I have is my rule for people ( Read more... )