all my worries about the future were in vain, i have yet to see the future. i always find myself in the present.

i dont know anymore. sometimes i think i have things figured out and things are finally starting to get better and im finally feeling fine, but then once i start to believe this everything comes crashing down. i thought i was supposed to be okay now ( Read more... )

i had a good day today. jeff peter and matt kidnapped me in the morning which was just what i needed to start my day off great, they are really amazing people and i love them all in their own unique ways. even though we dont ahng or talk as much as we used to i love how it feels like you always fit with them ( Read more... )

so yes we hung out today. and i loved every second of it. you are the type of friend who we wont talk for days but when we do talk we pick it up where we left off like nothing changed and nothing happened. you are one of the few people who can do that and make it not feel weird.i know it required a little bit of a push for us to hang out but the ( Read more... )

you didnt even think about it till i said something first, it didnt hurt you till you found out that it hurt me. nice to know how much i was of a friend to you that you arnt even hurt by the fact that the only conversation we ever have is meaningless chatter to look civil towards eachother ( Read more... )

Its most definatly been awhile. alot has changed, i have changed, my friends have changed, and my now nonfriends have changed. i used to be a big fan of change. now im not so sure ( Read more... )

this is my coinscience effort to try to make my life into something i am proud of. i used to think that i had to stand out and be something other people can recognize as being special and ill admit sometimes i do go back to that train of thought, but as of this very moment my train is on the thought track of i just want to be something i myself ( Read more... )

you know its been one of those days... i know i know its always one of those days for me, what-the-fuck-ever. im happy for my friends who have finally found happiness in something, ironically that happiness is making their final decisions to move on from me, which doesnt really matter to me. im just glad you finally found your smile. i guess its ( Read more... )

got to the DC area around 6 in the A.M.after that we went to the hotel and checked in and all that shin dig, and mister mciver basically dragged us to every last possible historical site in the area. i was so tired i literally dont remember most of it, time change is a bitch. although i do remeber sleeping on the steps of the lincoln momorial and ( Read more... )

thursday night i saw jasons band play at the highland talent show.... they were really good ( Read more... )