She loooked at me and saw... something. Something amazing, she said. But now that she's gone, I'll never know what it was, because she was the only one who ever saw it. You look at me and you see disappointment, and shame, and unaccomplished goals. I look at me, and I cry... because I see the exact same thing. So tell me, Lady, what does that ( Read more... )

Tell me three life changing things that I've done in the last year. Bet you can't. Closeness that was fought to keep close got more open with each day. I don't want to be somebody's random thought, somebody's "Oh I just remembered..." If you have to "just remember" me that means you already forgot me. I never forget... and it's actually ( Read more... )

What do I want? Where am I going? Why is that when I leave a crappy situation, I return and it is still crappy? And why am I suddenly in love with Jared Leto ( Read more... )

I am just so afraid...

Okay so my baby got home yesterday from her trip to SoCal. She got her hair done and called me up afterwards and asked me if I wanted to kick it at her house early. So of course I was like yeah so she and her older sister AmberLynn picked me up with my big ass overnight Victoria's Secret bag and we went back to her house. Her mom is ( Read more... )

I am so fucking tired. I was on the phone with Ashley last night for like 3 hours. I miss her and wish it was next weekend already so she'd be back in town. We have been having some serious talking lately. Like last night we discussed our parents attitudes towards our lifestyles. Neither of us have been completely honest with our parents about ( Read more... )

Wow... I mean like wow... I am not in love... but I am definitely in "like." Ashley is one of the coolest, downest girls I've ever met. I like just being with her, talking to her, looking at her. She's sweet, and both of us will randomly call or text each other just cuz we're thinking about each other. Me being my usual silly self, I thought ( Read more... )

Don't give me pretty words and tender touches unless you mean them to last forever. I'm so tired of running out of those things and more tired of those things running out on me.

What the fuck indeed. Okay so I wuit my job yesterday right? How about the manager calls me twice amd leaves messages on my phone. And I kid you not he actually said on my voicemail, "We're begging you to come back." What the fuck? So I called them back and they were like if you can stick it out in the lobby for another week we will transfer ( Read more... )

Yes, I'm back. Yikes, I'm actually getting in the habit of updating my livejournal... daily... bi-daily? Bi... hehehe. I like that word. Anyways, so as it turns out, I wasn't fired today. But I got called into the manager's office for some bullshit. Apparently Nick got pissed that I told of him. So he went and told Jen that I never performed ( Read more... )