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[nutritdestruit]

I am so fucking fat. I am 5 feet and 126 pounds! I just stand in front of the mirror and punch my stomach-- if I had been pregnant, it would be dead by now. I eat 800-1000 kcals a day; I exercise enough; I don't know what to DO. I've done it twice before-- what's the problem? I want my bones. I want the wings on my shoulders. I'm thinking about

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[ingeborge]

Please don't fall back into your eating disorder, hun.
You were doing so well!..And you can lose the weight healthily. That is what you were planning, right? A healthy weightloss program? Well stick to that.
You are my ed-recovery-hero, don't lose out to it now.

I love you, and much strength to you.

[nutritdestruit]

Bleh. Genuinely, thank you for the love. I AM going to lose it healthily, if I can. I just get so frusterated-- and I feel like I've been tricked twice. Once into initial recovery, once out of a relapse-kind-of-thing where I was 102 but losing fast.

[ingeborge]

I do know how you feel.

I'm not too optimistic now as it is...I haven't dared weigh myself since I was 108 or so a week ago, but I really feel like a fat pig.
I'm really fighting the urge to fast...and I'm losing.

[kawaiinoir]

Please don't punch your stomach!