Everyone go listen to Regina Spektor ( Read more... )

Been at camp for 2 weeks; home for 40 hours, 2 more weeks to go. 8 pounds down!
AND WHY AM I STILL OUT OF PRO_ANA? Gr.

( Garbage & Lou Reed lyrics )

Seeing the Decemberists tonight! Oh yeah.

I am so fucking fat. I am 5 feet and 126 pounds! I just stand in front of the mirror and punch my stomach-- if I had been pregnant, it would be dead by now. I eat 800-1000 kcals a day; I exercise enough; I don't know what to DO. I've done it twice before-- what's the problem? I want my bones. I want the wings on my shoulders. I'm thinking about ( Read more... )

I think I got a 4 on my AP US test. I majourly fucked up essay B by confusing the Treaties of Tortadillas and Guadalupe-Hidalgo... but my DBQ kicked ass because I just did a project on the American Revolution. I heard my friend's head hit the desk when he opened the packet and saw that cartoon of a female patriot staring back at him.

( not even resembling work safe + triggering )

Restaurant for Anoretics?

I got this out of anti_ana

I keep wanting to kill myself, which is not good. My weight-- meaning, really, my identity-- seems more and more hopeless. I want the close relationship that I had with my mother when I was sick back (sick meaning low-weight). Everything seemed so much bigger, and I felt a love in everything. Any gesture of affection was so monumental; my mom ( Read more... )

So many of you guys have recovered from recovery, but I seem to be unable to do it. I still have my recovery weight plus more.