There has been such a huge release of tension in the last two weeks. Yuri's exams are over. My birthday has come and gone and I'm still here. (As a bonus, I've now lived longer than my dad). The weather has warmed right up. The house now has pictures hanging on the walls and feels so much more like home. The Google "perf" cycle is over and I read ( Read more... )

Why is it depression is so hard to admit? A month or two ago I remember wondering if the black dog was near the door. Now I spent whole days practically jumping out of my seat, running blindly from the twitch that doesn't let me concentrate on anything at work or at home because I haven't given it demanded attention. The only relief seemed to be ( Read more... )

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Mum and Sarah tell me our cousin Jenny's house has been severely damaged in the Christchurch earthquake. She's fine. Other more distant relatives were there, but news has yet to reach us. I can barely remember who these people are. I have numerous cousins, aunts and uncles in New Zealand (grandparents having passed away long ago), but I really don ( Read more... )

We didn't spend that much friend time together, but it was the best quality. A backyard bbq party in Balmain. A bottle or two of wine shared at our work offsite in the snow. A crazy beautiful evening in San Francisco eating Ethiopian food at New Eritrea then stumbling into the Academy of Sciences Museum dressed up as a night club. Your infectious ( Read more... )

Why not just crap on us instead?

Here I am again. Not dead. Didn't forget you ( Read more... )

still alive

Too much guilt over my Lj languishing patiently. When do people return from the glitter and shallowness of Facebook? Why has lj been forsaken?

I'm going for an ultrasound on Thursday. No, I'm not pregnant. We're just trying to see if there are gallstones. The pain situation has been rather nasty these last two weeks. Heart problems are not on the table, nor (it seems) are reflux problems. Pushing the area got the required "ow" from me, so the doctor mentioned gallstones as the most ( Read more... )

I got back from my San Francisco "Google App Engine / Gay Pride" trip yesterday morning. Firstly, apologies to everyone I failed to see when there. Social opportunities were always pretty minimal outside my work agenda this time. I was lucky enough to run into a few of you and I promise next trip I'll budget some proper social time. The second ( Read more... )