First before I forget, I went to my fathers house today to pick up an old school desk that was mine when I was a little kid seeing as how my little sister has taken overanything of mine that is worth taking I took this desk out of the garage so that I had something to set my computer on if i wanted to sit at it instead of standing or laying down on ( Read more... )

So I was going to start off by talking about how long it has been since I wrote in here and I guess I just did it anyways but I deleted it and wrote this. I feel kind of scattered lately a lot like I did when my parents first split up and I was sleeping in a different house every night. Just scattered my thoughts are all over the place and just ( Read more... )

So having a cast on one hand really puts a damper on wanting to update this because i cant type well, but just notes for when i have two hands, other ppls friends, family, old people, mom's dating scheme, apartments, beth at work and her son, my truck, a role model. The other 8 million thoughts

I've been wanting to work through a few things in here for sometime but with my new work schedule and now my broken hand this isn't really going to nwork out which sucks bad because I really need to reflect on some stuff and i've had a lot of success with this so far so... Anyways to get some major stuff out of the way i would like to say just a ( Read more... )

I was just thinking the other day that I haven't cried in a long time and In my case that is never a good thing. try hard not to bottle things up inside because usually I end up taking it out on the wrong people. That happened today, twice. Are things just easier if you don't talk about them with anyone? Can they just simply be forgotten or do they ( Read more... )

I told Stefanie that I was going to write an entry speciffically for her to read, I wish I felt more into this right now because I have so much to say but it is after 4 in the morning and I do have to get up in 2 hrs with chuck and then work all day tommorow, so I don't know if I'm going to say everything that I want to here. Stef, if I wasn't ( Read more... )

I was driving home tonight from work and I started to wonder what love really feels like and If I will ever feel it. If anyone has had an impact on how I feel about relationships it's my mother, lets say my parents to be fair because my father is no saint himself but just lately its all been about my mother. Looking back I can think of a handful of ( Read more... )

Contemplation is a big part of who I am. I dont know if that is the right word but I try and think a lot of things through before acting or talking about them. Right now I'm thinking about how I try to be who I am. I'm waiting for something major to change in my life, I dunno I see other people growing on me and me taking some of their qualities I ( Read more... )

Maybe its all just a crock of shit. Who's to say whats right and what is wrong after all, our parents? our friends? Ourselves? Aren't we just regurgitating something that we've heard one of these people tell us before. Change is it good? or bad? Change for the better or worse is held in the eyes of the beholder, what is good for some isnt good for ( Read more... )

I find myself asking more and more if being who you are is worth it in the end when its so much easie to just say F* it and be an ass hole...besides the more I think about it the more thats what girls my age want from a guy. Maybe it is the type of girls that I am interested in? Is any one worth changing yourself for? Honestly? I'm not enjoying ( Read more... )