So i'm standing on my own again. this weekend was fun. i wish i didn't feel like shit for most of it but yeah it was ok. i think i'm going to give up. it was a pointless battle. kinda like running myself into a brick wall over and over again. i just want to fade out right now. just not be here anymore, i don't know where i want to be but i know i'm ( Read more... )

I made a huge step in my life. And i did on my own...wow i did it on my own. I'm proud of myself.

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My chest feels like its slowly collapsing. I'm starting to think that its getting worse and i can't withstand the pressure anymore. Breathing has become difficult.

So the weekend i ended kinda sour...everyone ended last night in a bad mood in one way or another. My own feelings toward the entire situation...idont know. I kinda feel like i caused a bad mood just because i wasn't in a good one and on top of that i was the entertainer, they were my guests, so i feel like it was my responsibility to keep the ( Read more... )

So people came down and it made me happy. I'm not sure everyone had fun but i tried and thats all i can do. I guess thats a plus... i went and saw a couple of bands tonight and i know i enjoyed it. Leaving sydney and fixedtiltuesday were pretty cool. its gonna be hte longest most pressing week ever. i swear i'm going to want to blow my fucking ( Read more... )

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A wraith with an angel's body ( Read more... )

There's a game life plays ( Read more... )

I don't hate tuscaloosa, i don't hate birmingham, school isn't bad, work is actually fun. I don't know what the hell is going on, everything is going positively for me but i still feel like complete shit. I HATE BEING FUCKING LONELY ( Read more... )