i need to start a new journal, one that's actually about me im just so done with having to rely on other peoples feelings i really am' i like being happy and not neglected because yes that word fits perfectly and this lj has dedicated itself enough as a pedestal for nothing..nothing at all, i have nothing to show not ONE thing so yay for new ( Read more... )

"i would love to hook up with you but its cool i hope we can be friends thou"
its always like this, because i never respond and dont really plan to

i know what i want and im leaving it all in the hands of time
i may be drifting towards a dead end but i have a strong feeling
it will be an awesome trip

i hate it when people are so understanding ( Read more... )

so yea i dunno if im the only one who's ever felt this way
but i can safely say that i've always thought that your best friend
should be one you keep for the rest of your life.
how can you go on living without that one piece that makes you whole
the only one that fills that void

wow i am seeing everything so clearly now ( Read more... )

so i have a new car which everybody just loves :)

im definitely contemplating the thought of moving out
but until then i have just spent even more needed money on
two tickets for dashboard at the house of blues yay
this is two months away but i am very excited
u best be marking your calendars haha

so theres something thats bugging me but i keep ( Read more... )

i swear all i ever desire most of the time now is to sleep
and when im awake im just sleepwalking

but i think its safe to say things are looking up
these current days which makes me smile

=)

next week i have to.... i mean I HAVE TO pass two exams
in order to fufill my temp dream of earning some type of
degree from being two long years in a stressful ( Read more... )

naps are greatness, gaWd i adore them!!!

especially when they are shared with a great friend and/or great lover and/or some sort of warm companionship
i also have to give thanks neither one of us snores because this way the silence in the room makes each breath a more intense one where you patiently hold your own just to hear the partner in your ( Read more... )

i feel, i dont know it may just be me, that some people strive off the fact that they can make your life impossible. Seems, again only to me, that people who can make you SO happy can also turn it all around and make you go insane!
hey heres an idea, why not live tranquil and have only joyous days instead of shitty ones because you want control and ( Read more... )

at this exact moment it would be nice to die from nyquil overdose
the recommended amount is 15 mg i have taken three times that!

i do however love cherry cough drops for they are my friends <3 <3 <3

this is the worst ive been in years it seems, ive got everything down the list ( Read more... )

tonight we rented a few movies, sat down and watched sixth sense!
i cant imagine my world without him
...so i dont
the movie kept skipping i took it out and found this dvd is ancient and the scratches on it were proof, i thought i might be able to save movie night but apparently i couldnt wipe a disc down by myself so he came to be of some aid and ( Read more... )

for every fear that can't be named to calm you down
your heart starts skipping steps
so you're farther gone
than you might expect
if your thoughts should turn to death
gotta stomp them out like a cigarette

my conor oburst or however u may spell it may be better than chris carraba just maybe.

depression is not my thing but it becomes me at times ( Read more... )