today felt like...blah. it wasnt necessarily anything great that happened and there wasnt anything negatvie that passed me..so i'm guessin that means i had a good day. YAY. Im cold tho  i know that. I'm supposed to be working out...but i've made up an excuse by thinkin!!! lol. GREAT TIMING BRAIN ( Read more... )

i went to Dwayne's page and it was the same as usual. But one thing i noticed different was the song. Its called WHat Will It Take by Jah Cure. I was listening to it and i felt like he was speakin directly to me. Part of me wanted to say it could be any girl or maybe he just liked the song....but it was tooooooooooooooo close to home. SPECIFIC SHYT ( Read more... )

 Im in the lesbian chat on BP and i have made a few chat friends.....if u will call them that. I can always go there any time of the day and find this chicks up. Some of em know i am bi-curious..but most dont. I just feel comfy without drama. But somethin that gets to me....is that i dont have real friends in life that i can chill with like i chill ( Read more... )

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 ....so yea....i'm sitting here with only one thing on my mind.....PLANNING!!! I been tryin to  keep my brain focused on positives so that my last days in the south go by smoothly. Tonight i came home with a mission. I was gonna find out about DJANGO for my going away party. I havent brought it out to everyone because the plans have changed a few ( Read more... )

SO yea....i just got through workin out...it wasnt as much as i wanted to, but it's a start. I've become lazy. I've let alot of shyt get to me...n i dont want to be that way anymore. I am in a mode of not letting ppl stop me from what i need to do. I got so many damn leeches right now trying to attach themselves to me. WONT HAPPEN!!! I've been ( Read more... )

Soooooooooo...this weekend i went to ATL with Venus for a night out. I told her this was my last time going out until it was time for me to leave for NY. I need to save money. SO YEA............. we went to the VERVE. Tihs spot on Peachtree..next to Django..the spot we went to last time. I saw online where it was a 3 level club..so i was like YAY ( Read more... )

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I cant damn sleep. Every night it's the same shyt!!! I NEVER SLEEP!!! I sleep when my body shuts down. Tonight Gary called me after i got off work n i almost didnt answer. But somethin said ACCEPT. So i did....n it added more shyt to my list. PARTS OF ME SAY..GET THE FUCK OVER IT DAMN!!! But the friend in me listened and tried to help. I'm mean ( Read more... )

 it's not easy being alone. sometimes i ask why i have to be n other times i sigh and accept it. but just now i had a weird thought. I saw myself walkin into another room n layin in the bed with another person. I didnt want anything at all. I just wanted to not be alone. That pushed tears to my eyes. I feel very lonely on the inside. I just want ( Read more... )