I don't know what has happened. I used to be so happy and everything was going so good, and now it feel slike my whole world has crshed down around me. I am so unhappy right now it is crazy. I have been in the verge of tears for two days now, and I have been so irritable lately as well. I will just snap at everyone and everything. Nithing ( Read more... )

I get to talk to Jeff tomorrow!! He's gonna call me before he goes on the plane. I am so excited!! It'll be crazy to actually be able to ask him quedtions and get an immediate answer. Anyway- I have to go to my sister's for dinner.

grah...

I am completely pathetic and retarded sometimes. Most of the time I am okay with Jeff being gone, bit lately has been HELL. i hate it. i am glad that he is on a mission though.

it has been so busy lately with my sister getting mariied and everything. she just left to go to the tample for the first time, that is so crazy to me, she will be wearing garments when she gets home. i just sent off a package to jeff. i made cookies for him. he probably wont like them, but its the thought that counts.

i dont like this. oh yeah, and yes amy, you were right, crossroads has got to be one of the stupidest, cheesiest movies ever made. but i still liked it. oh well though. i suppose that i am a moron or something. sam, stephen and kenny hated it, but guess that was expected.

i hate this whole letter thing so bad becaus ei have to wait forever to get one. he is only allowed to write once a week, so i hear, and he has a whole bunch of other people that he has to write to. i am not the only one. i feel so pathetic. at least i will have amy to bond with until her jeff gets back, but then after that i will have to go ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do about this whole jeff thing. i dont even really want to date anyone else, but i am also really lonely, and vulnerable. i would feel like i was cheating on him if i were to even cuddle with another guy. this whole thing sucks really bad. hopefully it will get better over time. i dont know though. grah.

well, jeff is gone. i have never had to go through anything like this before and it sucks really bad. wow. i was in a fairly good mood until my mother came down to nag me about something else i have done or not done. oh well, i am just going to have to swallow my pride and accept the fact that i am doomed to be nagged. i went to CA and i was ( Read more... )

i am so extremely bored rightnow it is ridiculous. i have been sitting around all day long doing absolutly nothing. oh well though, i guess that it is my fault because i could have totally done something productive, but instead i have chosen to sit around on my ass all day.