dear livejournal,

it's been long....

fuck oil. fuck oil. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucck oil.

yeah, i can't expect to master oil in my first endeavors with it. but let's put logic aside; fuuuuck oil! i feel like such a noob! AFRAID to touch the canvas even! afraid of creating shapes at all, even with graphite! as if the un-skill is spreading. stupid, stupid, stupid.

so happy to be coming out of that funk. fuck mono ( Read more... )

i think i am depressed.

scatter-brained.

again, awake and craving the time to get things organized. 1:59am.
give me a break. PLEASE.

feeling slightly - perhaps a tad more than 'slightly' - crazy and wanting to get my hand in on so many projects its utterly ridiculous. never mind impractical. i am drained as it is...

what is wrong with me?

i can't think. i could - i was ( Read more... )

i know what it is, why i'm here ( Read more... )

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i've lost my art.
i feel so suddenly uninspired.

fuck.

oh the ways in which we entertain ourselves...