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[nytemare]

i need to get my tattoo... rightnow.

i am the least strong person i know. this haunts me, but not into action. yet.
really, what is my issue?

i don't feel like driving 30 minutes to the barn so that i may see my horse by myself.
such cowardice that i should be ashamed. but instead i am sad, and depressed.
what the..?

Comments

You are not alone,

[paradox1252003]

Talk vs action, These past two weeks, I have consistently failed, at almost everything. And today i recieved some horribly painful news, which broke down, a very powerful illusion I had created about someone I held very close to me. Now I just feel more isolate, more paranoid, etc.. My only advice is not to give up. All we have is time, and hopefully the desire, at least in the future, to see our dreams fulfilled..

Re: You are not alone,

[nytemare]

i am terribly sorry.
i know what it is like. atleast more or less. in my own way...

[cittycat16]

I like your Angelina drawing/icon. Did you do it yourself? I think I've drawn the same picture of her. I saw you through a comment on Nnnuts' journal :)

[nytemare]

why yes i did, thank you.
:)

it was the first piece of anything i'd done in some months, so i was satisfied after i spent a small amount of time on it, but when i look at it now i'm less than impressed. only because i know i didn't use my.. artistic/drawing skills (for lack of better terms) as best i could. it was like a quick fix for wanting to draw something to say i could...

ahh well.

[dandylionkats]

"i don't feel like driving 30 minutes to the barn so that i may see my horse by myself.
such cowardice that I should be ashamed. but instead i am sad, and depressed.
what the..?"

You know... I sometimes feel the same. I wish I had someone to share my love of horses with... and especially because my mare can be difficult and a second person can be helpful (particularly when I've not had time to ride her as much as I should be) it can be a little disheartening. She is the best or the most difficult... the drive is far... I'm often tired after working all the others... and there is nobody to help should she be difficult. Makes me feel like the worst horse owner ever... and as someone who trains horses? Embarassing.

You've dissapeared? Where have you gone?