In the autumn on the ground,
Between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows throughIt's still crazy wrapping my head around the fact that one of my best friends is getting married on my birthday this year, and that my bestest has turned 18... It's just mind-blowing to me. I still remember the ( Read more... )

However you feel
Whatever it takes
Whenever it's realSo I'm currently at GDC. So far it's been pretty awesome, I must say. I like pretty much all the CAs I've met so far, and I definitely pretty much already love Tim and Ian. I got my schedule switched around so I can at least go to school tomorrow, and take my ear training midterm and such. So ( Read more... )

There's a kind of emptiness
That can fill you
There's a kind of hunger
That can eat you upIt's hard focusing on other things, when I have no sure guarantee that things will ever be better. But I have to try, and wallowing in this pain isn't going to help me get by at all. So instead I'm focusing on my friends, those I care for, those I haven't ( Read more... )

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could holdI've cried every night since. It hasn't broken except for one day where I didn't get a chance to really be alone for the whole day, or got a good moment where it would've been okay to cry. I mean, I even used Adoration on Saturday ( Read more... )

I'm in every kind of trouble
Can't you tell, just look at me
Half ecstatic, half dejected
All in all I'm all at seaI miss you. I can't describe it, how much this hurts. I know it was the right thing to do, that it would never work out, that I could not be what was needed...what was wanted...I wish it didn't have to be this way, though. I'm hurting ( Read more... )

And I'm still the girl that loved you
When your eyes were open wideDisclaimer: none of you know what I'm talking about unless the person I'm writing to, in this pseudo-letter, reads this. So please...if you want to make a comment or write something encouraging towards my feelings or something, go ahead. But do not assume you know who or what I'm ( Read more... )

No hands are half as gentle
Or firm as they like to be
Thank God you see me the way you do
Strange as you are to meFirst of all, Merry Christmas all! You are very loved, and for those I hardly see...I miss you guys. Christmas has been a good, yet interesting time for me this year. I've been thinking a lot about people I care about...friends and ( Read more... )

She tried as hard as she could
But she knew it wasn't good enough and wouldn't ever be
So she had to start hiding how she feltI fell apart last night. Worrying about someone I really should not have worried about. I should not worry about. And now...I don't know what has happened to me, that I'm worrying so much. I relish every moment near him, yet ( Read more... )

Holding close my secrets
Naked broken pieces
From the madness in what you do
The fingers point right back at youSo I try to escape those moments, try to get away from being too foolish, hurting myself unnecessarily, but then I always find myself in situations like that all the time. You know what kind of entertains me? I'm totally okay talking ( Read more... )

You walk alone in the valley of life
In the shadow of love
Under the trees of happinessSorry I haven't written for so long. Life has been a blur and so crazy recently. I keep having moments that feel so...unreal. Like they're taken out of one of those weird films with all the crazy symbolism or slightly off characters...and I should not be allowed ( Read more... )