Well the evening overall was okay. he had this sort of stove/hot plate thing that we grilled some chicken for andy and some halloumi cheese for me as said I liked it a while ago with some veg kebabs that  mushrooms, peppers on and had loads of salad and a few spoonfulls of brown rice which he had cooked for me, washed down with half a bottle of ( Read more... )

Saw my cpn yesterday morning which was really good talked about support available to me and wether we put in another refereal to st maurs as she has lost some faith in them and she is going to email them about support they can offer me. will get some support which is good seeing dietican soon, and also elisa riveria which is a clinical psychologist ( Read more... )

Been a few days since last updated. I am startng to feel depressed again, I don’t know i I feel suicidal, I get moments when I think about it but I won’t do it however I am now starting to feel quite down again. When I left hospital I was pretty happy and knew it was best for me, as the hospital was making my eating and exercise worse and just ( Read more... )

Well, those you know me on here are also on facebook so have seen that I was discharged yesterday morning. I think they realised that they couldn't help with ed and my admission was only because of how suicidal I was and they saw that my mood was loads better and I just wanted out their. They had already decided that I could leave before my ward ( Read more... )

Boring day in crazy town. Visitors couldn’t come because of being ill and family stuff. I don’t mind but just means no contact with the real world! Although Katy did drop of a yoga mat I ordered and a graze box with a selection of dried fruit as she had an appointment at the main hospital site.
Showed a nurse the letter that I wrote for my ward ( Read more... )

Well have had a bit of a better day today, apart from stupid fire alarms going off at 2.30 am!!! But managed to get back to sleep, man I love zoplicone always seems to send me off like a fairy.

Got picked up at 9.30am by Katy and managed to pick some things up from my Mum’s although forgot loads of stuff, but got essentials clothes and warm boots:p ( Read more... )

Well the psychiatrist who I saw yesterday and whom I am getting to know apparently went to the edu I was at to meet with two clinical their and they said it was okay for me to have leave so I am now granted 2 hours leave tomorrow!!! Ffs I just wish they would make up their minds. Had a nice chat with her even though I was pretty vile to begin with ( Read more... )

fucking hell!!!! I am beyond livid in fact I absolutely mad at this place. Te so called fucking consultant psychiatrist says I can't have 2 hours leave why would the stupid idiot fuckwit doctor get my hopes up telling me I can have leave and then dash them all. don't they get it makes my eating disorder worse. I was meant to have Andy in today I ( Read more... )

Well today has actually been a good day. I was weighed this morning and it had only gone down by 300g, my ed was giving me shit as I had lost nearly 2kg the week before and wa ssyaing I should have ate less exercised more. However it meant that the psych agreed that I could have 2 hours daily leave with friends or family ( Read more... )

Had another fairly okay day today.My mood is so much better, and I really wish teh damn psych would believe me when I say I don't feel suicidal anymore, but I guess they don't know that for sure as have manage dto talk people around that I am safe when I have been found with bucket loads of tablets!! I just want some unescorted leave.

Ed head has ( Read more... )