I hate Bret!!! Ok, so yesterday when Bret first gets there he comes back to the offices where Zhaun is and starts yelling at him. It's so loud you can hear it on the floor, and in the back you can hear it over the noise of receiving. Bret was mad at Zhaun for not working more. Zhaun's only worked a little bit this week. Now, let me remind you all, ( Read more... )

I hate myself. I want to write this big long entry. And indeed I have, I've just made it private. I just feel I have more to say. I can't get the right words to express what I feel. I can't explain it correctly. I can't say enough. There's this wall and I keep slamming into it, and nothing I can do will break it. I can't get through. And so here I ( Read more... )

uugh, so tired. Need sleep. This is another "sit up and feel sick" morning. Though I'm sorta better now, my eyes feel warm and achy. Victor still doesn't believe me when I tell him how much I've been awake. He says it's all in my head. I ask him, what about when I wake up and I feel like this and it only gets worse throughout the day? All in my ( Read more... )

( Dark Knight ***SPOILERS*** )

My plan to save some money and then go somewhere. To a city of sorts. I'm not sure where. Maybe Missoula. Maybe somewhere in Idaho. Or Billings/Great Falls. I'm not sure where. Just to get away. And we'll spend the night in a motel. And go shopping. And we'd ride the motorcycle so we'd mail whatever we bought back to us. I think it would be cheaper ( Read more... )

I'm horrible. I'm only on step 14 or 15 on Victor's shirt. :( But then I haven't really worked on it much. Actual construction time isn't too bad though. I just need more practice so I stop doing stupid things that I have to rip. I think it's going to look fairly decent when it's done though. I like this shirt a lot better than the last one I made ( Read more... )

I couldn't sleep last night again. I kept drifting in and out. Looking at myself in the mirror I can tell I'm not getting enough sleep, I've begun to get black around/under my eyes again. No one should have to wake up at 4AM every day.

I really hate 5-1s. I hate waking up exhausted. I hate going to bed at 6. I hate this. I wonder how much Rosaurs pays.

It happened again. I woke up at some point during the night and couldn't sleep. I felt awake. Rested. I felt fine, like it was the morning after a nice good sleep. I mean I could still feel tiredness creeping in from the back of my head. But otherwise if it was time to go to work I would have been great. I don't know how long I laid there, but it ( Read more... )

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