i'm starting over . . . clean slates are good for everyone.

dont know who im kidding imagining you care and i could stand here waiting a fool for another day but i dont but i dont suppose its worth the price worth the price the price that i would pay but im thinking it over anyways ( Read more... )

i don't even know what to do anymore. i couldn't describe how i feel if i tried. but i'm going to anyways, i'm a little hurt, i'm a lot embarassed, not only for her, but for me because i'm related to her, i'm pissed off, i'm disappointed. i don't know what else. gah. i can't really talk about this anymore. part of me hopes that she gets what's ( Read more... )

Okay, so, my weekend fucking rocked!

Went to a dance, met cool people . . . saw some people that I know that are cool.

Hope you enjoyed!

and that is that it will be good to have some men around these parts. i get too lazy about myself when there's not . . . and then i feel like shit . . . and look like shit . . . and, well, it's a vicious cycle i guess.

so, for the time being men = good . . . lesbians = decent . . . strait girls = I LOOK LIKE FUCKING SHIT!!!

So, I talked to Ryan today. He told me that pretty much everyone that I thought were my friends - thought being the key word - has been saying shit about how i "feel" about the situation. To be honest, NO ONE knows how I feel about Ryan and I, except for me. Brie, Vicki, and Rohm all have an idea about how I feel about us, but no one really ( Read more... )

So, I guess things are getting better around here. In terms of school - well, we just won't mention that too much. Everyone I know is dreading this horrible European Civ. test. I hope it doesn't suck as much as I feel that it will. On the other hand, I'm developing a bit of a crush for a certain someone. As great as he is, I still am unsure ( Read more... )

Okay, so, you probably already know this, but I got a strange visit from the past last night. It was nice while it lasted. We kissed a little, but then when he was like ready to take some clothes off, I was just like, "umm, no" because I was just there in replacement of Stef. That's all that I could think about. All of the feeling that was ( Read more... )

Seriously though, I do. INCREDIBLE. I talked to my friend, Rohm, who - seriously - has been there through it all since 7TH GRADE!!!! I can't believe my luck to have someone like that by my side. He is amazing to me. Last night he imed me and said ( Read more... )

the clouds are beginning to clear and i am glad to see that you are still there