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I wanted to post....

Yet no words can be found.

I don't know what to think. Maybe it is just my way of thinking.  I don't know I am trying to understand things but I don't know.  I just wish I knew how to handle things.  I know what I can make.  I don't know.  I can't think about things lately.  I feel like everyone is calling me stupid and thinking that I am that way because I don't know the ( Read more... )

 Hey. So, I am not sure what is going on.  Things are starting and I am not sure what to think, do or otherwise.  I have something to think about and I am not sure what to think and I am not sure what to do about things.  Please understand that I am not one to take betrayal lightly.  I have been betrayed too many times and things are not, not, shit ( Read more... )

 He drives me freaking nuts and I don't know what more I can do. 

 Never get what I want ( Read more... )

 I don't know what to say about much anymore.  There is alot that I can't put into words.  I can't think. Least at this point, I can't think in a good. way. The past weeks my mind has been on overhaul and nothing would go by without worrying that it was something else than what it actually was.  Still things that bother me. Things that make me ( Read more... )

 Just thinking...

Sitting at the computer listening to Batman.  The original with Michael Keaton.  One of the best.  Anyways,  last night Mary came by and we shot the shit for most of the night.  Watched I am Legend.  Good movie.  We drank somewhat and was laughing for most of the time.  There were a few times I was a bit out of it.  still amusing ( Read more... )

 It is hard for me to explain presently what is going on in my head because of the speed of the thoughts.  They are coming faster than I can process.  Tammy told me something... Work helps her escape.  Least I think that is what she said...  I can't remember completely.  Something about that statement made me think of something my old camp director ( Read more... )

 Hello again.  Nothing too massive changing.  I rejoined a website that Chris and I had a disagreement over because of the conversations I had with some of it members.  **no I will not reveal which one it is**   I dont want him knowing that rejoined so with the present computer issue, making my way to it is very difficult.  In any case, Chris and I ( Read more... )

 Can I say that planning this wedding is giving me a headache?  I can't seem to get Chris to give a damn until he wants to when I am done with it.  My Mom is all about planning everything. Calling, getting quotes, let me call places and help.....  I want to kill her already.  Chris and I want it outside and frankly I just want to elope and say done ( Read more... )