my brother is an idiot.

I might have just made the biggest mistake of my life.

god, what have I done to myself.

the fact that he's having a miserable life... makes me happy. however, I'm still extremely curious as to what he wants to talk to me about. I wonder if he think that I'm still interested in his life? I don't know. I would like to know what he has to say and what he wants to discuss... his engagement? pathetic. I hope that for the next couple of ( Read more... )

not a day goes by that I don't look at that message. not a day goes by that I don't think to myself on how I should delete it. every time I begin to read it, I remember everything. I remember being on the phone for hours on end, laughing, smiling, and loving. in all honesty, did I do something to deserve this? he was my best friend in the entire ( Read more... )

someone please shoot me now. i mean, are you fucking kidding me? who in the fuck does he think he is anyway? After vanishing for over a year with not one word spoken after wrongfully accusing me of saying some idiotic shit that you... apparently heard and took it way too serious. Why could you just do me the biggest favor and stay the fuck away? ( Read more... )

Wow, who would've thought.

Sometimes, i wish he simply just didn't exist.

Holy crap. i think i'm getting sick.

looking forward to the next couple of months...

I'll have my car and an apartment if it all goes well... finally redrafting my life an hopefully for the better.

if you have something negative to say about this, I don't want to hear it.

I miss boston.
I miss chris.

I've come to the point where i've almost forgotten who i actually am.

I'm seriously over all of this. i know i should stop whining but whatever, this is my journal. fuck off.