I don't even know if anyone still tracks this. There were a couple of people that I used to write in here for, but I don't know if they really ever read much. I'm a bit of an insomniac right now, so I thought I'd post a bit here and see if there's really any point to it!

So how could I go on, and where did we go wrong ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being pulled down. I'm tired of feeling like space that is mine, isn't really mine. I'm tired of feeling like I don't belong or that I've done something wrong. To some degree, I don't care. I'm allowed to be here, not because you say I can, but because I have the right. I've worked just as hard as anybody. I have just as much ( Read more... )

I've been so busy lately. I feel like I never stop running. I've been working days in a row up at the camp, doing various duties and picking up shifts when losers don't show for work or call out. When I'm not working, I'm doing something at church with handbells or the 8:30 service or even now the 10am service. Something always has to be done ( Read more... )

So my June California trip has been postponed to August. Well, not postponed as much as changed. John Mack, the guy I was supposed to work with, had a stroke. He's ok, but he's not doing anything but recovering this summer. So instead of John Mack and oboe, I'm going in August for Thomas Stacey and English horn. I'm nervous, but really excited ( Read more... )

I miss Fredonia.

And for all my complaining about noisy neighbors during the semester, my house is way too quiet!!!

I miss Mel and Jenn and Mitch and Andy and Sam and Dana's craziness and Harold and Jess and Chase and Lunchie and everyone else who was just THERE!

Is summer over yet?

Sometimes things can happen that you don't even expect. You plan for one thing and other things sometimes take over, or just get added to the plan. I did get studying done this weekend and I did make reeds and practice. I did get to lock myself in the basement and get some work done. I also managed to see Justin and I had a great time with him ( Read more... )

I'm just not in the mood for people. Well, not all people, but the majority of people. I'm tired of having to go to bed with loud suitemates next door and drunk people outside. No one really gets how stressed I am about my jury. My life hangs in the balance. If I don't do great, I'll be screwed. I'm not looking to just pass, I'm looking to blow ( Read more... )

There are a few things I hope people know about me by now and if they don't, they might want to be educated. I'm very selective with my friends. Some people might think I'm a snob, but I'm really not. I just don't care about everyone's problems. I don't have the time or the energy. I used to be like that. I used to be the person everyone ( Read more... )

Nothing much new has happened this week. Spring Break is over and the stressing out has begun. I have quite a lot of things on my plate right now and its basically the mad dash to the end of the semester. Its not really an out of control stress right now, but every second of my waking hours have been planned out so I don't waste time or forget ( Read more... )