I'm slightly ashamed of myself. I don't believe in masterbation, or wearing tampons - Therefore, I have no clue where my vagina is. (Okay WHERE it is on my body, just not the opening that leads to my uterus!) Trying to put yeast infection ovules in my vaginal tract has proved to be difficult due to this fact. But it lodged itself somewhere else, ( Read more... )

I guess with all the 'go-go-go' lately, I haven't stopped to think about much that's gone on. Until today.

You know there's things you swear you've told your closest friends, but clearly you haven't? I'm talking about very very important things, life altering things. I felt terrible today when that came up, but I'm glad it did. I'm not one to go ( Read more... )

Little by little I feel like I'm learning all those life lessons they try to teach you in Kindergarten - Share with others, treat others how you would like to be treated, be careful what you wish for, don't say things you don't really mean...

Except, I'm learning them now. The hard way. I've become more and more accepting of situations and sat back ( Read more... )

I've thought about a lot of people over the past week. Mostly people I'm no longer speaking to, and all of them because of stupid reasons. I think it may be inappropriate to try and write to them at this point, but I need to get these things off my chest:

1. I am so sorry. You have to know that I would never ever want anything bad to happen to you. ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm back in elementary school. I was the scapegoat who everyone picked on and talked about. It's the exact same thing, except people are a lot meaner and deceitful now. I hated going to school, every day. The only thing missing from this picture is the physical abuse I endured from the kid with a "mental disability." There's more at ( Read more... )

I surprised myself today. Musically and morally.

I laughed with so many people today. That hasn't happened in over 2 months. It felt incredibly good.It makes me feel better knowing that regardless of what other people may say about me, or the trouble they try to cause for me - I do have a small group of amazing friends who know my core and who I am ( Read more... )

My face hurts so much. I'm not out of shape, and I can read rhythms just fine Ms. Conductor - Maybe if you gave your poor double reed players some consideration and an extra break, that would help our focus and playing better. Instead, you just scare the crap out of us, which is counter productive - Regardless of what you say. We are not machines.

I ( Read more... )

Despite being über sick, I had a great week. I mean, school is going to ultimately be the death of me, but that's fun. It's by far the busiest schedule I've ever had, but I'm pretty sure I'm at the stage where I can handle it.

I've had a lot of time to think, a month. I've cycled through several emotions and thoughts about the situation, and the ( Read more... )

I've ignored it. It made me so angry. Well, initially upset, but then angry. So I forgot about it and just vowed never to speak to you again.

Then, someone asked me about you last night. I never realized how many people actually DON'T like YOU. It's amazing. You're not the person I thought you were - And I'm pretty sure I have the full picture ( Read more... )

So reality sets in, and reminds me that I have to be careful what I wish for and what I write - Because people read my journal entries. It kind of defeats the purpose of free expression, and having somewhere to vent... But I guess online isn't the place to do that.

It feels like someone punched me in the stomach. So that's how you feel. Fine. You're ( Read more... )