this will hopefully be my last time even speaking of her again. ive decided im going to just simply pretend she never existed. its not like theres hope for our future or this can be saved or whatever bullshit is in line for whats happening with this ending. its as simple as she not being able to provide what i need and not willing to attempt to ( Read more... )

why did i respond to her? i held out a whole week, and just finally started to feel like i could breathe again, and i fell like a jenga tower 20 rounds in. i didnt let myself get upset like i should have when it first happened, i thought i could beat it and just ride it out til it was gone, but i foolishly let her back in like i always do. now i ( Read more... )

i find i hide between the pages when reality grows rough around the edges, er well i guess the "e-pages" these days.  im not really sure what im doing at all in my life at this point. i have a shit ass job that is ultimately just a joke. no car, and now no cell phone, fantastic! i cut off all my so called "friends" and only talk to people i can ( Read more... )

PATIENCE : Forbearance and endurance through moderation. Resolving conflicts peacefully, as opposed to resorting to violence The ability to forgive; to show mercy to sinners.

As in regards to the seven heavenly virtues.

bear with me here ive only written a few hiphop/r&b/rap type pieces ( Read more... )

have you ever heard the phrase, "never make someone a priority, who only makes you an option" ? this has been running through my mind nonstop lately, and its no wonder why, im an option to her, the level of spice she chooses at the thai restaurant down the street. or even the restaurant she may want to dine at, the priority is thai food, she doesnt ( Read more... )

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e⋅quiv⋅o⋅cal [i-kwiv-uh-kuhl]

adjective

1. allowing the possibility of several different meanings, as a word or phrase, esp. with intent to deceive or misguide; susceptible of double interpretation; deliberately ambiguous: an equivocal answer. 2. of doubtful nature or character; questionable; dubious; suspicious: aliens of equivocal loyalty ( Read more... )

why doesn't she understand that shes giving me such horrid options with the lowest expectations, and offers another such good options with a low percentage of it getting any better for me? and if she does understand that then why is she coarse enough to offer it to me and mean it and think i wouldn't question it? i gave up something good for the ( Read more... )

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