can't stand to see me happy, hate me more when I'm sad. When you're done playing with my mind, tell me when your satisfied. Am I mess, or am I doing just fine? You check up on me and comment like my life is worth something to you. I know you hate me. I see it in your behavior. You wish I would fall. Hit the bottom so that I would need you, so that ( Read more... )

kay, well today wasn't that bad, and by not that bad, I mean I could at least tolerate people by the end of the day. and the little kids did cheer me up, they are sooo funny. kids, wow, they can make you feel good no matter what most of the time. I'm really going to miss all of them when I leave. I feel so much apart of most of them, I see a lot of ( Read more... )

I'm depressed, and I'm also depressed about being depressed. Pathetic? Yay. So what ( Read more... )

Hmmm nothing feels important to me anymore. Yesturday my Dad even said how going back into his routine and going to work didn't really matter to him. I can't believe it's already been a week since my Grandpa died. I'm not even ready to let this just slip into history. Last week at this time I was at Amy's house and we were watching Real T.V and ( Read more... )

Well it's just one thing after another this week. I think that I got so stressed out about my Grandpa that I made myself sick. And now I have a really soar throat, I'm tired even of after getting about 10 hours of sleep at night, and I'm dizzy.

I'm supposed to be doing this poem for English, I can't even concentrate for more then 10 minutes and my ( Read more... )

In a room draped in blue ( Read more... )

do you ever wish sometimes that you could take someones place that's hurting or dying? Instead of having to lose them, you could leave instead? I'm to that point. I can't figure out if it's selfish or not but I can't lost him ( Read more... )

Today in school when I was trying not to show my emotions (crying) about my Grandpa, I thought of these lines ( Read more... )

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ahhh crap.. I lost my train of thought.. I had something... lost it. hmp ( Read more... )