call your nameee everydayyy. when i feel so helpless. i'm fallinggg downn. but i rise against this. rise against this. yeah.

because i know everything will be how it should be in time.

how can it be that i feel him all around me when he isn't. and i know it's weird to say that since he is still alive. but i feel him either thinking about me or something like it's still there ( Read more... )

so tricia enlightened me last night. said there's this really professional quality camera that i can buy for only one hundred. i mean i'll have to look at it. but if it's one of those cameras then i am one step closer to my career. and happiness. i'm starting to save just in case. i'm bad at saving ( Read more... )

so today i go to double daves for an interview. i'm thinking. it's like across the street from where i live so i think it's veryyy convenient and i can work any hours. funny since i have no car i'm actually happy about this. some of the workers there i recognize. well, one. jamie from connally ( Read more... )

so i am getting less and less hours and no respect what so ever at coldstone. tricia agrees. by the way she works with me and does the same things i do at that store now. we have been hanging out a few times now. and every time is pretty damn fun. i am hoping to get another job with her somewhere else. so we can both start new AND both get better ( Read more... )

i'm moving out. hopefully everything will go okay and i will be in my own place by june 1st. found the apartment and everything. have the move in money ready. i think i am ready. i'm so scared though. alot of people haven't been there for me. especially when i needed them the most. i am all i have now. my mom and sister are moving to houston. this ( Read more... )

i may be messed up right now.,...but its because i dont want to feel it right now ( Read more... )

i havent updated this thing in A LONG TIME...maybe 6 months ( Read more... )

i cant believe the way felicity died in mission impossible 3 ha well keri russell i mean

i want to move out with ryan and i think itd be the best thing because he makes me so happy even if we do get into fights

i cant stand waking up and him not being there also

wee my 19th birthday is tomorrow

dear journal,

i created monstrous blisters on my feet from these sort of high heelish mary janes

p.s. it was a stupid move

p.s.s. i forgot

i love ryan :-x wait...why am i making that face