You tend to find things out as you go on. Thought I would come back to this almost as a way to pass some boring, mid-sunday time. A year later I look back and at once nothing and everything has changed. Apparently at times I'm just a novelty. I like the feeling though of saying that nothing can really get in my way. Relationships are a curious ( Read more... )

I'm finding a way through... two and seven once again, this is getting too easy. just close your eyes and jump, this is going somewhere.

wow...what light I had in this small village is now out. close the doors, pull down the blinds, and turn off the lights, just close the lights, the aren't doing any good. If I could see them from fifteen and eight miles away then I wouldn't have needed to come begging for food. But I have, and feeling your gentle sobs against my chest made me ( Read more... )

I'm getting closer all the time. With each passing day, even though this experienced hell is a classic stereotype for the pithy angst everyone feels that everyone should know, i am getting closer, and I know it. With every day, i get closer. Going to be complete...so soon. Though so much of the worlds love was thrown at it, it is only to better ( Read more... )

Numbness...it's leading to a more relaxed contentment...if I feel lucky. Losing out? I don't really think so anymore. Deciding about my path is the last thing on my sunlit mind. But come near, and I will take you. 3 and 3- home again. Soon enough. Then I will be relieved and shaking, but the feeling gives me life.

its the damndest thing...I feel nothing right now. Every swirl of life is now just meaningless. I'm not even upset as to my apathy...if it can be called that...it just is...from moment to moment to moment, that's all it is...how can nothing mean anything?

Apparently I have revolved sense and record around a dismal satisfaction. Disappointing to say the least, that I only seem to be able to note the downs. The sun rose again today. Surprise, but this time, it means a little more. I might be hanging over emotion, but it feels right. Something clicked...something worked...as if I had never had the ( Read more... )

this could be the end of my completion. Thanks to your angered little tone, you broke down and tried to wrap me up and suffocate me. I might have to tear you away, though it hurts, I have to find a place of peace. What once held wonders now only holds corpses. Yeah, I have to get some air. Whatever it takes, I need to get some air. And when I ( Read more... )

*In Memory*

how can it be that in just a split second of emotional spiral, the foundation collapses, leaving nothing. Absolute nothing. To bring it about again, to step back in the fountain, it just seems to be pointless. Quit buzzing about my head. Its driving me mad, no green, just grey, this pointless grey. You know I'll check again, I just can't ( Read more... )