I went a little crazy last night. I had a bowl of ice cream and crackers with jam. But it ended up not being so terrible. I am lactose-intolerant so the ice cream (which wasn't soy) pretty much went right through me. But tonight I am taking my boyfriend out for sushi because it's what we do each month on the 2nd and we missed it due to lack of ( Read more... )

After just consuming an apple and a chocolate chip cookie, (I already had a white chip macadamia cookie and 144 Cals. worth of saltines earlier today), I feel like a fattie. I am guesstimating that so far today, not counting the apple because it was healthy (and negative-calorie to boot), I have consumed at least 350 Calories. Oy. Actually that ( Read more... )

I lost a few pounds already. Yay yay yay! I am down to 122 from 126... but I must say that I think my scale is way way off. Well...not way way off, but off. When I was 126 my parent's scale said I was closer to 127...so I am just going to go with what my scale says because no matter what I weigh now, 122 or 123, I still lost 4 lbs. Hey - it ( Read more... )

"The people of Avalon fast, sometimes, to teach their bodies to do what they are told without making demands it is inconvenient to satisfy - there are times when one must do without food, or water, or sleep, and the body must be the servant of the mind, not the master. The mind cannot be set on holy things, or wisdom, or stilled for the long ( Read more... )

I haven't really eaten much today. What I DID eat was bad though. I had a couple bites of a cookie and a brownie...and a handful of Chexmix... all of it homemade by moi for last nights girl fest. I let myself go a little last night...but I feel ok about it. I feel fine now because my stomach is fabulously empty again. I feel dehydrated...that ( Read more... )

I have this habit of saying, "You're killing me, Smalls!" You know...from the movie THE SANDLOT? Well...my roommate (who is also my coworker) weighs less than 90lbs, so when I say it to her it is even more appropriate, you know? Well...the point is this: She has never seen THE SANDLOT and doesn't really understand why I always say that to her ( Read more... )

Great website: http://www.wvda.org/calcs/Read more... )

Current weight: 126 lbs. BMI= 23.8 ( Read more... )

Ah the horrid body-image. I have gained weight. I am up to 126lbs. And I am back in action, ladies! And fasting feels so fabulous. I had forgotten that this kind of self-control was so exhilerating ... intoxicating! I am giddy just from the thought of fasting to the point of nausea again...and then overcoming the nausea and continuing with ( Read more... )

I am doing this for my future generations. Trying to stop this disease here...

I love all my ana buddies and I am going to miss you like crazy! Stay strong and beautiful! Hopefully... I won't be back.

Much love to all, Ocean.