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[oceanandmoon]

just a tip: if you have a housemate who you know is working really damn hard to fight against her eating disorder, and if she happens to leave a small amount of food in the house refrigerator, please do not eat it. it will fuck with her carefully organized eating schemes and basically render her a wreck.

thank you.

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[artistseries]

i didnt mean to find this hilarious, but i did, im sorry!!

only so funny because i relate to it 200%. hubby eats one of my apples and my week is ruined... ugh.

[oceanandmoon]

no, I totally understand. it's that weird self-awareness thing, where while I'm getting really pissed that my friends clearly ate my nice fresh mozarella, I'm aware that I'd be more than welcome to eat their stuff if I weren't so c-c-crazy and that really, the overreaction is pretty funny. damn, though/

[nikkibee]

Hey - I just found your entry in a recovery community;

"for bulimics who are on some sort of medication:

I know that I tend to vomit after dinner, and sometimes after lunch, and much much more rarely in mornings or late at night. I'm on two different kinds of medication, each of which I need to take once a day. therefore, I've decided to start pilling myself at times I'm more likely to purge -- I'm hoping that the knowledge that I have to have to have to keep the medication inside me will make me less likely to throw up.

we'll see if this works.

also, I've found lately that I just don't feel things. I do a little, throughout the day, but it only scratches the surface, doesn't reallly penetrate. I think when I'm like this, I'm more prone to letting the bulimia come out. does anyone have any tips for saving myself?"

and I just wanted to tell you that I am so glad you have said this. No one has captured my own feelings more accurately. Once again, I feel like I am not alone. Thank you for that, it is the best gift of all.

<3

[oceanandmoon]

I'm really glad -- it means a lot to me. most of the reason I'm here is because I have a feeling recovery will go better if I can remind myself that there are other people who think the way I do . . . .

good luck with your own recovery!