The only thing I can think of is to keep bettering myself and maybe the world will notice me again. Maybe I can be a light again.

Fuck I'm tired. I'm turning 40 this year.

Things I've learned:

-My symptoms get stronger and stronger even if my means of dealing with it get better and better.

-I can, eventually, push everyone away.

-All the change I've created in myself feels hollow because I don't have anyone to share it with anymore.

-I have this beautiful life and all I want ( Read more... )

That '2012 in Review' meme...



1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
Gym! Running! Lost weight specifically from 93 kilos to 87 kilos! Sung a solo at a wedding! (albeit brief). Came off brain meds! etc.

2.Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Pfft resolutions.

3.Did anyone close to ( Read more... )

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
Housey things.
Paid bills I've never heard of.
Called a late-night electrician.
Genocided a bunch of bird mites.

Got promoted.
Exercised consistently for a couple of months (and counting).

Made friends on twitter
Went to Perth (for more than just a day for work)

Started D&D playing with friends

2. Did ( Read more... )

One day someone is going to walk in on me spinning in the bathroom/bathroom hall. I'm going to need an excuse. Any suggestions?

Edit: I forgot. Awesome thing happened last night - someone learned that cravatfiend was dating us and invited her to a party because she was our partner. Accepting people are awesome.

I'd like to take five minutes to talk about how awesome my players are.

kissingcrime plays Raiann - a humanoid blue dragon ardent, the only diplomatic person in the group, often the voice of reason and the sole reason everyone gets to stay alive. Apparently has a very strong romantic interest in a cute half-elf that I created on a whim.

Mr kissingcrime plays Nazadak - a ( Read more... )

It's been a while.

Summary
Life is pretty fantastic in general.

Dancing
We're back into dancing, which I really missed. Nikki even said that it was awesome I was back because some days there's only one person that's worth dancing with there (freyaw 's partner, obviously :). That made good feelings.

Choir
We've just started Carmina, which is awesome if ( Read more... )

I wish I was home.

I had SO MUCH FUN and my players are awesome.


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Apparently I can carry theladylillith with one arm again. My body is fun.