I went down to maryland this weekend and i came to a hard realization...my supposed friends do not talk to me because they like me but rather we were so close in college they feel obligated to stay in touch, atleast somewhat in touch anyway. They talk about me, andrew told me that. People ask who i'll be mad at next and what am i mad about now. ( Read more... )

You'll be free child once you have died ( Read more... )

From the first day I brought lauren to meet richard and he continued to try talking with her after the hooked up, I told him how much it bothered me. He ignored me. He friended her on facebook, he talked to her on the phone. He tried to tell me he knew things going on her in her life that i was maybe just not aware of yet. I told him again how much ( Read more... )

I'm not even sure where to begin.....I feel so..so...ugh alone. I've lived in nyc for 16 months and i have no friends. I mean literally, outside of work I have no interactions with anyone. I can't stand my roommates, and Luc and Case seem to not really to be around anymore. I mean don't get me wrong, luc's there when i'm in a bind, but we dont hang ( Read more... )

fuck him ( Read more... )

what should have been a happy weekend and turning point in my life has been completely overshadowed by the fact all the men in my life (for the most part, minus my brothers, father, and Luc) treat me like crap ( Read more... )

chris is one chance away from being completely cut out of my life. Seriously. like two weeks ago he asked if i wanted to go to brownies tonight for sink or swim and i said yes. I spoke to him voer the weekend about hanging out this week, and called him specifically about tonight. I left him a voicemail today and a text trying to confirm our plans, ( Read more... )

so the past week since my last entry has been pretty good! LEts see, where to start ( Read more... )

I am outside ( Read more... )

I feel like i am a spectator to my life, just going through the motions hoping no one notices how completely fucking miserable I am. I'm dreading saturday, I'm so excited for her to go 'cause i know how amazing it's gonna be, but i'm sad she's leaving me. But it's not like i'd be here anyway, i'm leaving too. I just have to hang out for a few ( Read more... )