I just took an awesome nap.  I feel creative still.  For the first time since mid last year I have had the urge to write for a long time.  I should be using it to work on my assigned reading, but I won't I know.  Now yet.  I'm determined to do good this year.

I'm debating whether or not to work through the autumn and winter.  What with other ( Read more... )

For about twenty minutes ago I was very sad about this guy that I like and his girlfriend.  Even that sentence makes my chest twinge.  I feel better now though after reassuring myself that no matter what happens, ever, things will turn out okay... for everyone, I hope.

I don't look forward to heaven, I look forward to eternal allrightness.

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I have had a much better day than yesterday.  Work went well and I got to talk with my friends for awhile during it.  Afterwards my family and I went out to dinner and when we got home I bought my new bass guitar online.  I'm very happy.

........!  I should practice every day and work on how to get better so I can do well and concentrate on the ( Read more... )

I miss everything.  Nothing that's already happened or even things that could have happened, I just ache for everything that I can sense but has turned it back to me.  Please help me by letting me help you...

Why why why does it hurt so bad when the cause doesn't even exist?

Find me find me so I can leave you and myself alone...

While spiritually ( Read more... )

I feel a little better accept I keep sneezing.  This too shall pass.

I have tomorrow off, and I'm determined not to waste the day like I did today.  I did nothing but get a little further in the book I'm reading that isn't even a good thing because of assigned books...  My brother is off to college this year.  I don't know if I don't really realize ( Read more... )

I feel very bad right now.  I'm going to call in sick tomorrow and I feel a little guilty about it but I don't believe I should because there's nothing I could do about it.  Besides it's a restaurant and if I'm there everyone that comes in will be sick not to mention all the other employees.

I have yet to write anything and the inspiration is ( Read more... )

Despite my throat being sore and my nose being runny, I feel very inspired to write.  I know I said that before and I did write something but have yet to type it up.  This time I can feel songs in the works.

I really feel like the band is coming together even though the members aren't together yet.  Some people someplace are thinking about their ( Read more... )

Ever since I got home last night I've been using the lip balm so now my lips feel nicely bloated and soft.  They don't feel natural but it's worth it and better than chapstick.

I just finished reading all of the recent Billy Corgan confessions on www.billycorgan.com.  Anyone who cares about who he is or anyone who's ever had any sort of negative ( Read more... )

I've spent the past few days or day I don't remember at my father's house.  I painted my brother's room with him helping and got through work alright.  After work I wandered around by myself and bought two new all natural lip balms.  One is peachy and called shea butter while the other is soft green and called tea tree oil.  I like having lots of ( Read more... )

I really don't want to work today because I've spent the whole day thinking about it also, no one will be here to give me a ride home.  No one here is giving me a ride there, either.  I needed to call Gio who in all of his graciousness has agreed to take me.  How fucking sad is that?  My own fucking parents, who bitched at me even when I was ( Read more... )