This weekend...

[oddrikku12]

Was weird. Unexpected. Loopy.

Ben is...hmm...Now, don't go spreading this. I just need to get this out of my system. There's nothing wrong right now. I just..well, let me elaborate.

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[lawliet_kun]

I've sat here and read this, and I wish I could give you some sort of big answer that would make everything simple, but all I can really tell you is that screaming might be a better option than you think. From what little I know about you two's relationship, it seems a little like he knows how little you like being mad at him, and so he hasn't tried that hard to change so that he doesn't make you mad. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but I think you know what I mean. He needs to understand that his negativity is hurting your relationship.

Scream if you need it 'un. And call me if you need to talk.

[oddrikku12]

He knows. He knows that even when I say I'm not upset, that a little part of me is. But, I hate getting mad at him about little things like, his dad is mad and him so he's grumpy. That's just a silly thing to get mad about. Honestly, most of it is in the moment. Once the moments gone, I'm fine. It's just when whatever I say to try and cheer him up fails, it gets to me. I don't understand why it doesn't make him automatically feel better, because it always makes me feel better. I get over things very easily. Very very much unlike him.
And, sometimes, I just want to scream but I know he won't scream back. Then, if he didn't, It wouldn't feel nearly as good as if he screamed back, you know? It's like screaming at a puppy. It won't get mad at you. It just won't get mad. It'll just take it and pout and look sad. Which makes you sad. And upset. And stuff.
God knows I love him. I hope my angsting doesn't make it seem like i don't. It's getting more and more real to me, which freaks me out sometimes. But it's cool. It's all good!