This week I lost another ex-lover. That's two in about as many months. I don't feel like it's very fair. I've been so emotionally drained and physically hurting *from the accident*. It doesn't help that everyone around me is generally miserable or apathetic ( Read more... )

and kicking. Lots of things have happened lately. My brother was married last week. I've taken up playing the cello and violin. I've also decided to go to school to become a pilot with the long term goal of teaching. I was in a major accident a few weeks ago which effectively put a halt on everything but it is only a halt. Staying in the ( Read more... )

A whole year in one place...finally. Time to start building again.

Here is the Washington Post's Mensa Invitational which once again asked readers to take any word from the dictionary, alter it by adding, subtracting, or changing one letter, and supply a new definition. Here are the winners ( Read more... )

Right under my nose. Who knew? That it was all right here. A comfortable shift. Mosaic projects still in the works Saturday is "Grouting Day." I broke down and bought instant coffee of the brand Kava, despite myself it's not bad, but still I feel like a traitor to the java by buying Kava. I've quite smoking, the fucking gum is gross and I'm ( Read more... )

"Burn One Down ( Read more... )

Over the past three weeks I've had quite a few new developments. First, I'm no longer working at the cabinet shop. Instead I've started doing tile mosaics. Second, I'm dating someone new, it is serious but comfortable. Third, I've started medications for mind and body as well as therapy once a week. Apparently there is a lot of crazy in there ( Read more... )

It's starting again. That feeling that I can't shake. That "I don't care, or want to be alive" feeling. It comes out of nowhere and perches itself right in the fore front of my thoughts for day, weeks, even months at a time. I wouldn't go so far as to say I'm suicidal. I just don't feel like I want to be alive. I'm tired of the day before it ( Read more... )

Today was a snow day. I guilted myself into going to work only to have to turn around and come straight back. I am in the smoking pod now, looking at the screen through a comfortable haze while I wait for the auto credit people to call me back. I'm so close to a car again and freedom I can taste it. I can't keep missing work though, my only ( Read more... )

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