How do you define grief? I know what it is to have an aching vacuous hole where something once was. I also know how it feels to have that hole be empty from something that was never there. Longing. Maybe grief of all kinds has that one common denominator. Whether it be a longing for what never could be, a longing for the completely unknown.. Grief ( Read more... )

i think i'm still drunk from last night, lol. aaaand, had the nicest thing to wake up to..that is, if you think 25 missed calls and 5 voicemails from an angry roommate and his sister are nice. i guess i locked my roommate out of the house last night. this makes no sense, since i have given him all four keys to this house. i even color coded the ( Read more... )

Dear Nicole ( Read more... )

An explanation. As far as ignoring you since Monday, yes, you are right. I have been. Frankly, I didnt feel like dealing with you. I've been extremely depressed, and since you are not capable of showing sympathy or compassion to me lately, Im taking time for myself, away from you. If there is anything at all that I have learned from you, it's how ( Read more... )

as well that ends well. my friend, that did not end well at all. sooo, that means.. yeah. all is not well ( Read more... )

i want to travel. explore, create, migrate, be poor. just me and my stella (yes, i named my car), and a little bit of gas money. i want to have seen each of the 50 states within the next 5 years, if only long enough to collect a post card or two. i am way too confined in my current comfort zone, i want to push the limits. this year, i will make it ( Read more... )

i do this to myself. it has to be me. any other explanation just does not add up. i keep picking the people that dont pick me, and im still the sad little girl sitting on the front porch, waiting for the mailman that never comes. stupid stupid stupid jenn, you're better off not knowing joy at all, then to only have it for a moment. now you know ( Read more... )

she's but a hollowed out easter egg. nice to see on occasion ( Read more... )

i deserve to be someone's one and only, not their maybe one day ( Read more... )

so yeah, rather than spend a hundred bucks an hour on a therapist, or talk my friends into sheer exhaustion, i write ( Read more... )