when_time_falls_short_of_waiting

[of_starlight]

So here it is, the end of summer. I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. Well, OK... I have some ideas I guess, but I'm not sure if any of them would be worthwhile. I'm so afraid I'm doing something or going somewhere only because it seems like the right thing to do. For the parents. For everyone who asks that god-forsaken question, "So...

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[gaeten]

yea it is fucking tough, isnt it? living and finding where you fit in and/or belong in the grand scheme of things.

too many people push through life bearing only the idea of: birth, puberty, work work work, marraige, kids, work work work, retirement, death.

it is amazing that people out there try to make something more of it. MEANING is the most important aspect of living. and it is sad that most people miss/overlook it. i hope you find it. and i'm glad you're figuring everything out.

be a fucking tree. dont let anybody knock you down.

ps- im still mad (for lack of a better word) at you. for leaving without saying goodbye or anything. i've had too many people i care about leave and not say anything or look back. i know you had to. but i'm still upset.

regardless, goodluck with everything.

[gaeten]

hey Gaet... I fucked up. I really did. And the worst part is, I wish I hadn't left wilmington... and all my friends... and you. You have every right to be pissed as shit at me, and it meant everything to me that you called the other night. I really wanted to talk to ya...

it's just...

I'm terrible with goodbyes. especially when I really care about someone, but it doesn't excuse not even saying I had to go.

I'm sorry. :(